Is he manipulating me or should I think v carefully about my own behaviour?

Thanks CW, for your message today, very much appreciated.

Take care

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for your post CW. You're a Tower of strength and (not even that tough) love

Louis

Reiterating respect I have for you CW. The f&f's need to be tough cookies to get through this madness and your certainly that with a heart to boot. I saw a post a few weeks back from you to Sandra, I think, when you said that you was experiencing the upturn and reconnection with oh, seeing the man you met. I was chuffed to read that.

Your directness is well received by many on the other side and a good kick up the a**e is good medicine. For me personally, I have a good friend, who I would fight like cat and dog with, in directness of there straight talking, only to eventually realise, they were talking sense and that I was blinded by denial.

We addicts are indeed sensitive, immature peeps when our addictions come to the fore. Possibly on a sliding scale though, but all the same in addiction. I'm sure some of the higher echelons in industry are riddled with some addictions of some sort, so anyone needing to justify there denial by stating there vocational superiority is indeed, insecure with there denial.

A bit of a early morning ramble. And really only came to say, morning, your a good woman and I wish you all the best.

Hi CW, Thanks for the mention on my diary. Life is complicated. Life is rarely black and white is it?

Thanks for all the support you offer to others. Know its been said, but an open mind is appreciated.

Hi CW , thanks for the pop in on my diary but sssshhhhhuuuush ! don't tell everyone we've been agreeing :))

To be honest it's good to get a different perspective on thing's and through your eye's I can begin to understand more and more , the affect gambling has on f& f's , when I first came here I didn't like some of the things that people dished out to me but looking back 9 months on , most of it was truthfull and came with their best intentions but you know only too well the way our mind is always in denial , I guess the longer we abstain the more clarity we have regarding our behaviour and with that the acceptance of who we are and what's truly needed to put ourselves back together .

I feel that the last few weeks I've had a eureka moment where I'm looking at recovery a bit differently , it's taken 9 months but I think I'm getting there eventually !.

I also realise that you only have peoples interest at heart but maybe it's your direct approach they don't take kindly to ? , that being said don't change anything because CG's need the truth from someone like yourself , sure it hurts sometimes but not as much as the way we hurt our loved ones eh ? .

Best wishes and I look forward to your continued and valuable input on the forum .

Ps , just one thing , maybe drop the Cynical and go with Chirpy or Cuddly Wife ? ( only kidding ) LOL !

Alan x

Morning CW.

Thanks for your kind post. We recovering gamblers can be a bit sensitive at times as you well know.

I noticed you asking about Deano. Spoke to him on FB last night. He is good and there is nothing to worry about.

Best wishes

Morning CW , Yes it does seem to becoming a bit of a habit of late but a habit that I can live with , unlike my last !

Best wishes for a great day !

Alan

Hi CW , and thanks . I did for one brief moment think of having a "Good old fashioned go " but glad to say I thought better of it and retreated to somewhere I could better serve :)) .

Funny , when I typed CW in to the keyboard , it said Cuddly Won !! , Ok I know it's not spelt correctly but it was smooth though , don't you think ? .

Enjoy the rest of your evening CW .

Hi CW

Thank you for your post, really appreciate your input.

You did something to me by your post a month ago...you said "STOP" & i felt million emotions running through me...shame & guilt included because this site is not for insults or bad manners...

You made me think clearly..that brief moment in time where everything around crashed cause of my own silly actions.

I trully thank you for that...out of all the messages i had with the same request, yours hit home hard...very hard.

I hope you're well. You & urs are working recovery and finding a little more peace with every passing day..it can be done, and it will!

Huge respect dear CW....& just maybe a distant hug to thank you for being you. Never change.

Sandra

Hi CW

Thanks so much for your post on my diary. Im sure your aware of how much your support means to many and I can say its very much reciprocated. Tri xxx

Hi CW, how is recovery going for you? You still getting all the support you need? tri

Morning CW , many thanks for your kind words yesterday, as always much appreciated and taken on board .

Hope your well and that all is calm in your household and that you also are getting support where needed , you work so hard around the forum and give us all the kick up the B side when needed and for that you have my thanks .

I'll no doubt speak with you soon !

Best wishes and take care for now ...........Alan x

Errrr...hello ☺

Feel so uncomfortable knocking at ur cyber door but that's just fool me for making wrong decisions and i fully deserve this feeling now!
Thank you for your tough love..yes, i heard that saying before & fully agree that my head was/is not in the right space yet.

Don't think if you know Rachel..she doesn't post here anymore but is from FF side of the fence. She nudged me couple of times in regard of taking on board of what you're saying...you mean me good..it just feels like it's coming down as a tank which crushes me on the way..., you truly have right to feel anger and dissapointment in us sometimes...talking the talk but not walking the walk must be the most frustrating thing to see..it's bad for me, i guess it's worse for you.

I'm sorry if i upset you by my words/actions..
I am willing to do right things for myself so every1 around me feels better too...please allow me some time to get my head bk together...

Take care and keep being you...
Respect!

S

Hi CW , You don't know how scared I was of opening that last post from you ,LOL!

I'm just glad you took my post to Odaat the humorous way it was intended , I kept looking and thinking " Oh good She's not seen it yet " but I knew in time !!.

Take care of yourself CW and " Thank you miss " :))

Morning cw
Thought id pop in and say hi
We havnt realy spoke much on here ....but just wanted to say...or admit I suppose that in my early days in here I did think that you were a bit " hard and bitter "...eek sorry that looks so mean !
Anyway....now. ..some 140 odd days later...after reading several of your postings when I come across them and with my head in a better place. ....I can see ....and understand what your saying...and the wonderfully honest advice you give to the forum....us cgs. ..struggle to see this in the way it's intended in the early days on here...so...massive respect to you for what you do in here....and hoping all's good in your houehold...