Today is exactly one calender month since my last bet. This is the longest I can remember going without a bet for a long time, and to be honest (not complacent) I really don't want to ever bet again.
What's got to me know though is the realisation of everything I have lost.
I love my wife and my children to pieces, they are my world. I know it's an old cliche, but I didn't realise what I had until it was gone, and i had no idea quite how much i do love my wife. I cannot stop thinking about her, all the fun times we had together, and everything we achieved as a family.
I'm constantly wondering what she's doing, how she's getting on and I keep checking my phone praying she has text me. I know she has alot of pain and anger over this situation, but with the help of the forums, and the counselling, I will do everything i can to be the best husband I can be to her.
At the moment, I just keep lookng for little glimmers of hope for us, a kiss on a text message, her wishing me well, just anything which gives me some chance.
She is my rock, and I really just hope that one day, she can get over this and take me back as without her, my life is so lonely.
Well done plum79, nice to get to a milestone, keep going and show your family you can do it! Best wishes x
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