Hey Folks,
So been 11 days now and no gambling. Had chance to reflect on my behaviour and as soon as your out of the loop and reality kicks in this can be even harder than giving up I have found. The shame and the depression and the change, after 4 years of the constant low and high of gambling now I am faced with day in day out of nothing. So really getting to grips with emotions has been what I have found hard. The shame and guilt of what me and my family are going through is hard but I keep telling myself 12 months hard work and we will be back on the level, if I had of carried on I coulda lost everything. It is only the stopping that has let me realise that, reality is back and although very harsh also very fair and really thank god it coulda been a lot worse. Thank god I messaged on here that Friday afternoon.
Going forward I am on guard, Thursday to Monday I had a good weekend felt good but today I have suffered the blues big time. No desire to gamble, I think its evil, no good has come from it. My councillor told me treat it like a dog dying who you really loved. Good days, bad days, hurt pain but overall you have to grieve and then move on.
I hope you can all find some peace and do something positive about the problems we all have. I am going to keep fighting and I hope you do to.
Cheers
Mike
Hi Mike,
It does take guts and determination.
Really good to see your positive comments.
Keep going.
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