been chasing losses and now im done

Hi, Im 36 and like you im emotionally all over the place. Have you tried councelling, giving control of fiances to someone else or limiting them.

I've struggled with gambling since i was 16, progressively got worse , higher stakes, more pain, more money wasted.

Doesnt get any better, im just so ***** fed up with the vicious circle of recovery and then relaspe its soul destroying. Just off the back of a recent binge (online slots) won at the start but then it all went back in and a heck of alot more! Left me and familly skint whilt i work out a way to get to thru to next pay day!

Why? I dont know, all i know is the pain is unbearable, and we cant win , we cant stop. SO stop! thats what im going to do, Stop!

Sorry for rant hope all well

good luck. Ive only got myself to blame and off i go to facilitate the self punishment.

Hi, I myself am going through exactly the same thing as you..I would quit for a maximum of three weeks sometimes longer give or take a week. Then of course like the silly thing iam id lose my partners hard earned cash on online slots and then the only feeling I would be left with is anxiety and a sick feeling in my gut as I have just gambled with our bill money. So far I been gamble free for nearly two weeks so its not something I can brag about but with support and talking on this site it can help us cope and improve our hunger for temptation.

Hi Cleanslate,

You have made the first major step by coming on here and admitting you have a problem.

Most people on this forum have probably more or less been in the same dark place that you describe.

The only ''cure'' for the problem is simply not to gamble. It can be done if you want it enough, any time you think for a second that you want to gamble - just remember where you were and how you were feeling when you made your post.

hi sunday

thanks for your consideration. The damage has already been done. that cant be changed but im destroyed.

game over.

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its been sports betting with stakes running into thousands.

This is my first post on this forum. I have read your post and felt I needed to say "hi" as it sort of echoes my own feelings. Yesterday (whilst i should have been working!) i just parked up somewhere quiet, had a cry, then rang GamCare out of desperation. They have given me the email address to contact, with a view to starting online counselling. I will write to them when I feel a little more motivated (when I will also type my story).

My losses run into 6 figures over the years and the financial losses have been matched by regret and guilt . Every fresh start has been wrecked and I now have to lie and hide my latest relapse in order to save my marriage. I will beat this and you will too!