Feel i just cant stop.. ??

Hi there I wish at the age of 42 I didn't start, that was the age I started, now at 50 I have absolutely nothing, the last year been chasing my losses, only to loose more. I installed gamstop in April only to find dodgy non UK casino's. I've had a couple of relapses, but this time only to loose money after paying my essential bills, before I'd blow my weekly salary in about an hour. I've done 11 days now and boy do I feel better. My debts will be cleared in about 3 years, but each week I chip a little bit off

Try give up, don't loose everything like most of us have and more

Its hard but with the right support do-a-ble

Good luck x

Hi, 

I really resonate with your post as I'm also a 42yr old who grew up in a seaside town where I spent much of my youth hanging out in slot machine arcades. My gambling just kept progressing with every year that past - motorway services, casinos, bingo halls and bookies. Wagering more losing more and trying to get that same buzz that I had when I placed my first bet. 

I had lots of failed recovery attempts but for me it got to the point where gambling gave me no excitement and only misery. 

If you have really had enough there are lots of suggested ways that are discussed on the members posts that will help you on your way. 

Recovery from addiction is far from easy but it's absolutely possible to have a life that you probably wouldn't think is possible right now. 

Where you go from here is dependent on your future choices.

Well done for posting on here, it's a great first step.

Kind regards 

Hi

In time I woud identify I was unhealthy I was not evil bad or stupid.

The recovery for me is non religious and yet I embrace do embrace spirtual values today.

I was just emotionally vulnerable to facing people ife and situations.

The person I feared facing the most was yself.

I use to be completely consumed by my addictions and my obsessions.

In time I would identify that gambling was a way of me escaping how I felt people life and situtions.

By attending meets I would relate to other people experences both healthy and unhealthy. 

I use to say that I wanted to be normal, yet over time I would understand that the refence normal is not very healthy.

I am  often why I attend meetings if I have not gambled for some time.

My answer is that by attending meetings I become more and more healthy.

I am a non religious and understand that any one can heal if they put lots of time and effort in to their reecovery.

My addictions and my obsessions indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable.

Over time I would heal my hurt inner child.

Over time I would no longer want to escape my feeelings and my emotions people life and situations.

I am more stable than ever efore.

Who I am  in the meetings today is the same peron who faces all situations in my life today.

I no longer want to go against my own conscience and against spirtual values.

I no longer want people to fear or mistrust me any more.

Love and peace to evey one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Hi stu

i am 42 and been gambling since a child.  Had gambling debt since 17 when I could drive.  Small stuff at first.  Thank goodness online and payday loans didn’t exist back then otherwise who knows how much larger my debt would be.

been in motorway service stations on way home from work and lost £xxx and almost chose to not acknowledge I had done it.  I never had huge wins.  If I did I never banked them.  Just played longer.  That’s how I think about it now.  Only been 7 days for me but want to be debt free by 45.  

Loads of us on here are 42.  So much so in forum the other night we were mob handed.  You can’t turn back time.  You can only go forward.

good luck x

Hi stu

just checking in.  How are you?

sarah