Gambling since 1998…

Hiya

As much as I can't resonate on volume I maybe could in the early days of my 44 years of addiction. What started as a bit of fun, accelerated numerous times in my life. I wish I had the foresight over the years, like you, to know something was wrong and I was addicted. As you mention, whether that be boredom or habit, I saw gambling as a safe place to escape to. Away from my stress, loneliness, or whatever part of life I wanted to avoid.

I've come to learn in recovery that giving up gambling is one thing. There are numerous ways to put blocks in place, build connection out of isolation ,support network and accountability but it's more than that. The way forward for me was to put all that in place and then work on the problem that was me. I have removed all desire to gamble. I lead a happy fulfilled life and work on that every day with a routine and strategy 

I would suggest chatting with the advisors on here either on the phone or on live chat text

Also, the 8pm text chatrooms are incredibly helpful with lots of people in their to help 

Boredom is a big trigger, I have access to all sports at home and prior to gamban could bet on them 24/7. It starts off as a fun "hobby". Then you find yourself in bed at night looking at what you can bet on tommorrow. It is the addiction taking over. Every step you take in the right direction will make if harder to go back.

If you haven't already, speak to an adviser on here in the chat icon, you can get gamban for free, I have found it so helpful and highly recomend it!

I myself gained some weight too, when I was gambling I was bareky sleeping and snacking a lot to keep my energy up during the day. Find a hobby to replace the gambling, go for a walk, we are approaching a bit of sunshine, do what works for you.

You are in your contemplation phase of quitting, stick it out, this community will support you, 

All the best mate