hate my life relapsed

Know how you feel. At times ...especially after a hammering and losing big money..iv wanted to just die...it felt like it might be a relief. But we all know its not the answer. Sometimes a slip(very costly i know) can help us in the long run as a reminder of how damaging gambling is.
I lost alot money too and on 17th march i decided to put two fingers to gambling and just leave it behind. I dont check results anymore..iv had enough of living like a shadow of myself..not sleeping...not eating and constant stress.
Time to say goodbye mr gambling

Hi GGGG

It sounds like your in a rough place just now but I'm pretty sure you have had some lows before? I'd say a large percentage of people on here and compulsive gamblers over the country have been in your situation so you have done the best thing getting back here to a place where we help each other!!
What you done before must have doing a good job but mabey not good enough as you have had a slip, now is the time to tighten up the barriers and re build what you had, ask yourself why you went back gambling and what your going to do to prevent it this time! Utilise all the tools on offer here, extend out the GA that's a change that will kick-start your recovery that I can testify to!
Keep positive my friend we are all here for you in unity is strength

Matt

thanks alot guys appreciate the support

IHi,

I'm only 10 days GF on what must be my absolute last chance, so I'm not in a place to offer too much advice, but I will say just 10 short days ago I felt exactly as you are now. I had managed about 40 days GF following a big relapse after new year, then I slipped again. 490 lost so another logbook loan needed, still didn't stop, 200 lost so another payday loan, then 300 then 200 so rent deferred for 2 weeks again. It was defering the rent that brought me crashing to my senses.. I have a young son and teenage daughter so how dare I risk their home . The shame and guilt was overwhelming and I could easily have just ran from all this I felt so low. I don't think I'll actually exhale untill the 25th and my rent is paid but the glimmer of hope is that I now have a debit card that I simply can't use online so the risk of a relapse just isn't there Sure I could investigate other physical ways to gamble but the risk was always when I was sat home alone and would genuinely believe I could just deposit 10 and leave it if I didn't win If you can tell someone gggg it does help . When we keep this compulsion it thrives, like Moss in the shade. Bring it out in the open and hopefully people will help you . You said you feel doomed for a decade, I felt that way too and perhaps my long term debts will take that long to address, but in a week weeks I'll have money for day to day things again so long as I keep blocks sky high to protect my funds Please hang on in there and be encouraged by the length of your previous GF times . You can do it again and do it for good

do anti depressents work or should i not take them advice of someone who has been on them would be helpfull just really low right now this gambling addiction is the worst i am really struggling to shake it off ruining me life

If you are seeking medical advice, i'd go and see a medical professional that knows your whole history GGGG such as your local GP? If you're still unsure give Gamcare a ring instead.