hi everyone
i have had a gambling problem on and off for 10 years. I have 3 children and I want to stop wasting money on online slots now, I have a bit of debt because of it and I spend every spare penny on gambling and sometimes over spend and have to borrow to get me through the month
i absolutely hate myself for it, I have huge self esteem issues anyway and this is just making me feel like the worst person in the world!
my gambling has got worse since I started maternity leave in August and it's not possible to go back to work so I don't want to get used to gambling every day to pass the time when baby is asleep!!
sorry for rambling on, I hope someone understands my frustrations and reading this forum can help. I have just closed my many accounts (after depositing £30 tonight via next months phone bill because I ran out of available money) and I am determined to just not open new ones (where do all these new slot sites come from anyway?)
are there any tips to take my mind off the gambling? Or any idea how long it will take me to start feeling a bit in control?
Hi Bcfcgirl
Welcome to the forum and there is no need to feel nervous. You will learn a great deal on here and really start to understand how the addiction gets a hold on people.
You will stop but there is no room for half measures. Its like a light bulb coming on and your gadgets must be monitored and blocked. Your mind will heal and you wont care about all these sites because why would you do it? You will be busy doing other things and new hobbies.
Take the fight on though and start self excluding from everywhere you can think of and more. You should take steps like not knowing the numbers on your cards so you cant log in with payment information. Close it down, block emails and put blocking softwware on gadgets. You cant do this half heartedly as the addiction is powerful. Im deadly serious about this as its about saving the quality of your life
You really should try and tell someone close because they can be very helpful and theraputic to you. Please ring gamcare and keep ringing them for the one to one voice. You have an addiction and you can regain your self respect and a healthy state of mind. You need all the help and there is no shame in being honest and asking for the help
Being gamble free is a wonderful feeling. Why would I throw my money away because I know fully understand what gambling is and the real risk.
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
Hi
I'm in a similar position only I'm not working due to disability. The best thing I have done is tell my mother and ordered new bank card and removed security code from the back (it scratches off) and now I simply can't register it online. My only gambling was online slots too but having put myself in silly amounts of debt and borrowed of friends and family over the last few years I'm determined it's stopped now. You can do it but it's so much easier to do it when the problem is out in the open, it thrives on the secrecy otherwise. Keep posting
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