It’s taken 10 years for me to admit to myself that I have a serious gambling addiction. Over the last 2 years it’s just got worse and worse. Today I gambled my entire salary within around 5 hours. I have no money and nothing saved so I genuinely do not know how I’ll survive this month. I hate how much it consumes me and I do feel like I literally gamble until I have nothing left. I have to stop and today is the day I do that.Â
Hi Finalstraw
You might get this reply twice as my phone crashed
Well done for reaching that moment of being broken. It took me 44 years to get there but I'm now nearly 6 months gamble free and have no thoughts, desires or urged to gamble now.Â
Do you have the blocks in place yet ?
We all have this, and in some ways I am grateful we do. Without the fear, embarrassment, shame, going without - we would not acknowledge that this is hurting us.Â
I gambled for over 23 years. It was both great and awful......except even in the "great " moments it was terrible. The only thing those moments did was reinforce that at some points I could be a winner. But guess what? I was NEVER a winner. I always lost, even when I won!Â
Now that you have that clarity, make the change, do something different! Don't let that feeling subside. Even when our brain chemistry is completely messed by gambling our nervous system still kicks in and tells us that there's danger. Feel it, acknowledge it and allow it to help you change.Â
It may not happen overnight but starve the gambling beast and feed the recovery. Bit by bit, step by step - make the change. You will not regret it!
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Clover
Hi
About the comment I put up, I didn't mean well done for being broken, mind was all over the place yesterday, I meant well done for getting to the point where you want to make a changeÂ
Sorry about that
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You could phone up the social security and ask for a crisis loan tide you thru till end of month just remember this feeling and use as fuel to turn things around wishing you the bestÂ
Hi Finalstraw
How are you getting on ?
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