I work in the gambling business as a croupier... I started gambling while I was abroad working on the ships and never stopped on return to dry land I started working in London convenience of having many casinos near by surrounded by other colleagues naturally we ended up in casinos.
I had a few small wins but more losses. It hit home when one night I managed to lose 800 one night. I was gutted and vowed to stop I vse myself from the casinos and took a step back. A few months later and I gained access to a casino and the dealer got stuck in a section triple 8 and I walked out with 1300 because I wasn't suppose to be there and would have triggered the limit for I'd required.
I felt good but I avoid casinos if I can.
I don't like football... but I started betting on the matches online and I found I was actually pretty good at it.. not supporting and team I don't have a bias and I can make a good profit within a few hours but I never seem to cash out.
I work hard and want to push myself in everything I do but I just can't get comfortable with my money situation it's just not enough
My wife is foreign and cannot work and I have a baby on the way last month I spent 200 that I haven't got and we skimped to get by I promised I wouldn't do it again and I was stupid.
I did 400 this month. I feel a complete idiot I started thinking 50 wouldn't hurt and I got to 730 I was going to do 1 last bet and cash out 1000 but it lost. Furious I ended up chasing it with 350 and lost that too leaving us with nothing. I feel so ashamed and disappointed with myself for letting my family down putting us in this situation.
My wife has told me sorry is not enough and she will leave me and I will not see my kid if I continue, i just wanted to make our lives easier with a bit more cash. I feel an idiot for not cashing the 730 out why did I do it was it not enough?
I have dabbled with payday loans in the past and to be honest I found they helped a little but after taking 3 in a row I cannot get anymore. I think it's a good thing...
Anyone understand me? I need to stop before I lose everything.
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I spoke with my family and asked for their help I have never seen such disappointing looks that I got. I asked for help because I had done the damage and I could see no other way out.
They asked why I was gambling and pointed out even if I had won what would happen next month there is no easy fix. I explained I just wanted to make things better and get myself working from 0 and not the bottom of my overdraft every month.
I felt ashamed of myself. Maybe a new low but I hope I never feel like this again. My family have helped me and have given me enough money to survive the month. In order to gain back control I have given my wife my bank card and I have no access to what i would call disposable cash.
I hope I never let my family down because of this habit and I feel strong about ensuring this doesn't happen. Thinking I could loose everyone I care about hurts too much to even risk
Be strong everybody we can do this together
Hi m
Firstly it takes a lot of courage to have to tell our families what we have done so well done to you for asking for help
Learn from this now and you will get your life back on track forget yesterday it's gone
It's today that counts and staying strong and determined you will win every day you don't gamble
We cannot win because we cannot stop
Best wishes
Suzanne x
Hi M,
I can completely relate to your situation. I think for me hitting the bottom and accepting that I've lost the money and it's gone. This morning I feel like a weight has been lifted as I now don't have the pressure of chasing losses. No more sneaking upstairs to watch a horse race, no more betting on a foreign football
Match that I have no knowledge of! When I think back I realise how stupid I've been and it was only days/weeks ago!
You need to hit the bottom, accept it and be determined to move on. This forum has been great to realise there are plenty of others in the same situation and lots of people to talk and share stuff with.
Good luck, being a parent is one of the best things that could happen. The risk of losing my kids and mrs' is what I think about everytime I go to deposit some more cash online.
Best Wishes,
Dave
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