It's time I fully committed to "STOP". Gambling once and for all and venting on here is were it and my gambling stops once and for all!. To begin I'm not actually a new member I've been registered for a few years but only commented a few times but I'm starting out as a new member and hopefully a new person with a new mindset on gambling. Over the last few years I've visited the site numerous times but only after losing money I couldn't afford to and in a twisted way to read other people's stories to look for the worst ones to somehow make me feel better about my situation (I apologise if that make me sound like a d*ck but I'm just being honest). Anyways back to my story (I'll try to keep it as brief as possible) . I've always liked drink on the weekends since my early teens (27 now) and since the age of 18 liked a bet. I've done what you could class as the usual if you read most peoples story's on here - started on small footy bets..they got bigger. Then went onto blackjack etc and finally onto the media dubbed(I definitely agree btw) crack C*****e of gambling SLOTS. I've won money and then inevitably lost it and more. I've self excluded all sites possible even opening accounts just to close them but then found myself going through pages and pages on Google just to find a new one to sign up to when I've got the urge to gamble and that little voice in my head won't shut up telling me how I won all that money off such a small deposit in the past. I've giving my bank card to my girlfriend but always managed to talk her into giving it back. I've done weeks of wages in minutes impulsively to then have to work for weeks (in my mind) for NOTHING. And I've had to ask my single mum who ironically works in a bookies to bail me out when I've been skint. But this is it as the title says the last straw time to accept it can't go on anymore! I suffer and take medication for generalised anxiety and have done for a few years so big losses certainly don't help with that . At the start of the post I mentioned I like a drink on the weekend and also a gamble. my real problem is them combined that's when there is no off button until everything is gone and that's exactly what happened last night. Basically the last couple of months have been crazy there were a few personal problems with the relationship etc which was stressing me out and after a year of no slots just a ВЈ50 max a week deposit limit doing football bets on one site which I stuck to . I made the choice maybe because there's currently no football on or maybe just because I needed that escape gambling brings. But i signed up to a site didn't set a deposit limit and then lost all ВЈ3000 of my savings in 1 night chasing my original ВЈ50 deposit! I'd worked bloody hard on cold muddy building sites to earn that money. Maybe I should of stopped then but I couldn't accept the loss .the following week I deposited ВЈ100 I played ВЈ2 and won a ВЈ1000 I withdrew ВЈ500 and thought what the hell I'll try ВЈ50 spins then on the 8th spin bang I hit it the bonus round ВЈ6000 I'd got all my savings back cleared my credit card and still had a nice lump left over. well here's the really stupid bit I got the money and over 4 weeks or so just fed it back into the same game . Last night I had ВЈ1000 in my savings and ВЈ1200 (ВЈ500 over draft) in my bank account... ВЈ 100 deposit turned into ВЈ1200 then ВЈ1000 and then somehow ВЈ500 over my over draft!. I now have £0 in my bank or savings plus know the week I've just worked still isn't going to put my balance back in the black. I feel like such an idiot and sick to my stomach at how stupid I've been but my biggest fear is doing it again in the future .
whats the point in working my a**e off to save money when theres a risk I'll just do this again! No matter how many sites and sister sites I self excluded from there's always new ones for me to self destruct on. After last night I've called the bank and told them I've lost my bank card and there sending me a new one which my plan is to give straight to my gf and have her scratch the last 3 digits off the back so I can't use it on any online gambling sites I'm hoping this helps and I'm never in this situation again. So this is it I'm committed this time and will do it this time I'm done with gambling! Thanks to anyone who's taken the time to read this and thanks in advance for any support or advice I get on my journey to becoming gamble free... DAY 1...
This has helped me in my second week .Great post a terrible addiction. I joined a few years ago but decided for more misery. I would usually be gambling now on line to 5am. If I'd stoped at 27 pre Internet days I'd be 200k richer but it's much more then that.
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