Trying to stop

Hi Alan,don't be sorry post on here anytime you want,ha iv just been telling Sarah that iv been watching all kinds of programmes and films and kind of using them as a distraction from gambling and one of the programmes I have started watching is called catfish,it's about people who have met online but not actually met and in some cases it's been years of just texting but when they do meet one of them has usually been using fake pics and is a totally different person,sounds stupid but Its really good ha

Thank's for clearing that up mate I'll have to have a watch as it sound's good  . 

I was worried I'd have to find my waders out ,  get up and dig some bait in the morning :(( . 

Hi Sarah

Ha I'm loving max and nev

I can't believe iv never watched it, it's crazy that people can go years thinking they are talking to a completely different person I don't know how they don't know,iv just watched one and the fella thought he was in a relationship and was engaged to Katy Perry.

I'm about to drag myself to bed or I will be sat here watching it all night ha,

Good night

Cheer's for the spoiler alert Lee :)) . Anymore you want to tell me the ending of ???????? LOL .

Night Mate !!

Well I can tell you several.. there was the one.....

no no I won’t do it but suffice to say a lot of people think they are talking to pictures like supermodels.  Never the case and yet guys will send pic with tops off and abs out.  Girls in bikinis but they won’t video chat because they are “shy”.

a lot of the people have body confidence issues and are not supermodels but some are people enjoying keeping these people hooked and then they get a tough time.  Show started as nev got catfished.  Thought he was talking to a woman.  Turned out to be the woman’s mother.  They made a documentary about it and that’s how show started.

some are crazy and some are a little ludicrous as lee said.  You get the odd one where the people are real and they said they were.

glad it’s a good distraction.

have a great gf day everyone x

Hi

The recovery program would not stop e gambling that had to be my own choice.

The recovery program would help me understand that by abstaining from my addictions and obsessions would help me be healthier and more productiv than at any tie in my life before.

The recovery program would help me understand that the addictions and obsessions were a form of escape for me.

In time I woud understand that making a decision would be a healthy boundary for me, to no longer self abuse myself or others.

In time I woud identify I was unhealthy I was not evil bad or stupid.

I was just emotionally vulnerable to facing people ife and situations.

The person I feared facing the most was yself.

I use to be completely consumed by my addictions and my obsessions.

In time I would identify that gambling was a way of me escaping how I felt with people life and situtions.

By attending meets I would relate to other people experences both healthy and unhealthy. 

I use to say that I wanted to be normal, yet over time I would understand that the refence normal is not very healthy.

I am  often asked why I attend meetings if I have not gambled for some time.

My answer is that by attending meetings I become more and more healthy.

I am a non religious and understand that any one can heal if they put lots of time and effort in to their reecovery.

My addictions and my obsessions indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable.

Over time I would heal my hurt inner child.

Over time I would no longer want to escape my feeelings and my emotions people life and situations.

Who I am  in the meetings today is the same peron who faces all situations in my life today.

I no longer want to go against my own conscience and against spirtual values.

I no longer want people to fear or mistrust me any more.

Love and peace to evey one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Hi lee

how are you today?  Good I hope ?

sarah

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Hi

The recovery program would not stop e gambling that had to be my own choice.

The recovery program would help me understand that by abstaining from my addictions and obsessions would help me be healthier and more productiv than at any tie in my life before.

The recovery program would help me understand that the addictions and obsessions were a form of escape for me.

In time I woud understand that making a decision would be a healthy boundary for me, to no longer self abuse myself or others.

In time I woud identify I was unhealthy I was not evil bad or stupid.

I was just emotionally vulnerable to facing people ife and situations.

The person I feared facing the most was yself.

I use to be completely consumed by my addictions and my obsessions.

In time I would identify that gambling was a way of me escaping how I felt with people life and situtions.

By attending meets I would relate to other people experences both healthy and unhealthy. 

I use to say that I wanted to be normal, yet over time I would understand that the refence normal is not very healthy.

I am  often asked why I attend meetings if I have not gambled for some time.

My answer is that by attending meetings I become more and more healthy.

I am a non religious and understand that any one can heal if they put lots of time and effort in to their reecovery.

My addictions and my obsessions indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable.

Over time I would heal my hurt inner child.

Over time I would no longer want to escape my feeelings and my emotions people life and situations.

I am more stable than ever efore.

Who I am  in the meetings today is the same peron who faces all situations in my life today.

I no longer want to go against my own conscience and against spirtual values.

I no longer want people to fear or mistrust me any more.

Love and peace to evey one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

 

 

Hi Sarah I'm good thanks,still engrossed in catfish I'm up to season 4 already ha,laylas in respite this weekend she goes about 1 once a month and she's there till Monday so iv got the twins staying with me this weekend.

How has your day been 

Hi lee

stayed at mum and dads last night to help care for dad.  Then work.  Then back here now.  Looking after dad all day tomorrow then hopefully home Sunday early to have a chill out day and housework.  Positives will be busy Sunday.  Negatives if dad has a quiet day Saturday temptation to be bored.  Hope you have a fab weekend with your boys. 

Yeah tomorrow will be a big test for you but you've done amazing so far so I know you can do it.

I'm just off to bed the boys have had me up the wall and worn me out I'm sitting on the couch half asleep ha.

I will check in with you tomorrow I know it could be a tough day for you.

Night Sarah x

Hi

Thank you for your comment it is very hard to believe it myself.

I use to be a very vulnerable volatile person, I was so unstable my family use to fear me and mistrust me.

Every promise was a waste of time, I could not believe in myself, low self esteem, inadequate insecure inept, sadly I was unable to love other people because I did not love myself, I was unable to respect other people because I did not respect myself.

My emotional triggers were my pains not healed. My emotional triggers were my fears not faced.

My emotional triggers were my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations. By me having unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I was effect causing myself pains time and time again.

My emotional triggers were my feelings of loneliness due to my fears of emotional intimacy. My emotional triggers were my feelings of being bored. I can be honest today with out being cruel or adversely affecting other people. I can embrace change towards healthy habits today.

My unhealthy reactions to people life and situations indicated that my hurt inner child was not healed.

In time I would open up in the recovery program, I would open up to counselling talking about every conscious memory of my past.

What is happiness, for me happiness is being content with who I am today, who I am with today, where I am and what I have today.

Money was never going to buy happiness.

Money was never going to heal my hurt inner child. My control issues were fear based.

Thank you again.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Hi

I used every tool possible to embrace my recovery, it took me some time to heal that hurt inner child in me.

To abstain from more and more unhealthy habits, to be humbled to the truth abut myself.

To explain to people when I feel emotionally vulnerable, to not suppress my feelings and emotions but feel them.

Once I put a lot of time and effort in to my recovery and handed over all of my finances and started to abstain my recovery was going to become much easier.

The money was just the fuel for my addiction.

I did not respect myself and I did not respect money.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Hi Lee 

Hope you’re well and I hope Layla is doing well?

Pay day has been and gone and I am still gamble free. At this moment I am not tempted although I take nothing for granted. I am trying to keep busy in the evenings I’m not log on to anything and therefore not see advertisements or emails even though I’m signed up to GameStop.

I hope your weekend with the boys was good and I hope you had a lovely time and got to spend some quality time with them. 

How are you doing and are you still gamble free let me know.

 How are you doing and are you still gamble free let me know.

Sarah x

Hi

Just for today I will not gamble. It is a boundary I set for myself to no longer live in fear and escape and to not hurt myself any more.

I found out that time off my addictions did not mean that my inner child was healed.

Being in the recovery program I mix with people who are dedicated towards being healthy and people who are willing to work as a team.

The recovery program works like mountain climbers tied together with ropes who find safe and secure ways of learning and finding new skills in living a healthier life today.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham