Hi, I suppose this is the start of openly admitting that gambling is an issue for me.
I used to work in the betting industry and left to join an amazing job around 13 months ago, however that is when the issues began (oddly enough). As it stands I gamble compulsively on a daily basis. It isn't like I am spending hundreds of thousands on gambling, however it is enough for me to say that I am in debt partly because of my gambling habits. The only plus I can find is that I make sure bills are paid and that they are done first, but I suppose that only happens as I coinside the direct debits with my salary going into my account. As life stands now, I have just had to borrow as I literally gambled my last penny on a race at Aintree this afternoon, I get paid in 2 weeks time.
I honestly feel that my gambling is just a habit, a bad habit that I do out of compulsive behaviour. It isn't about the money, and never has been. Today I start my journey on changing my gambling into something that I would consider more positive. I will keep a diary and write down when I feel like gambling and what I did instead.
Does anybody else feel like this about gambling, or am I just naive about my problem? I suppose I will know the answer of that once I start my journey and find out how bad I've really got it. Tomorrow is the national, bet already placed. Win or lose, it is my last (hopefully).
Hi mistermitch
Yes all the key signs are there...gamble compulsively ...daily basis ....debt..... borrow.
You are in exactly the right place and you will learn all about gambling for what it really is. It more often isnt about the money and is more about the highs, the expectation and feeling part of something. Yes the money is an element but previous addicts like myself were playing for escape and all sorts of complex reasons to do with an illness and addiction.
There was a miser within me and all sorts of trigger points how I would try and justify it
Its linked to depression, stress feeling empty inside and other factors in a confused mind. It can be linked to escape and comfort gambling. You will learn a lot here about the depths and tricks of the mind
What you need to do is try and rationalise the events of one day. Write them down and try and talk to somebody close if you can.
To a non gambler it just looks like crazy and addicted behaviour. Its is because you are ignoring the real odds, the chance of losing and the gambling mind works on a lucky clover basis.
It is the rocky road to ruin. Just becuase your bills get paid now is not the test. You mention debt and gambling takes you to a series of lows..... debts not paid. more loans. bills not paid.....and so on
You sound in the early stages of Hmmm whats this all about.
It can be beaten with the right help. It does take a readyness to stop. Gambling is not something you can dabble with. If its put you in debt you have a serious addiction problem.
Being gamble free is a lovely feeling. I cant stress that enough to you. I feel serene at times and my money is my own.
We can all help you here. Please ring gamcare. A little checkup with the doctor is a great idea and does not make you less of a person
Very best wishes
Thank you,
I think I will seek professional help in my own time as I have other issues in lie that need addressing at this minute. But, I aim to beat it and this site is full of inspiration.
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