2016...a year of can do's :)

The road isn't long at all. In fact it isn't a road at all in my opinion. Recovery is all about the journey and encompassing what you experience. Recovery is not a destination. Try to enjoy today as it unfolds rather than think about not gambling. It ain't easy when you start recovery but I'm sure you'll get there.

Take care

well done for getting serious by buying the software this shows your ready to beat this addiction , i will not anymore be a victim to this addiction

cant lie and say that i havent thought about gambling today...we booked a holiday to florida so i am focusing all my attention on that...i will not gamble today!

going to bed now and still going strong! i will not gamble tomorrow 🙂

really struggling i have just seen an ad for a high payout slot 🙁 i have that feeling of being not in control 🙁

Hi Iphillis

Well done on getting the software. For me I know it is the only way as I’ve literally tried everything. I’m now gambling free for a week which is great I can actually go on my pc and not feel terrified of ending off playing slots on a bingo site. Keep going and keep posting

i had that feeling the other day after seeing an add for a new online site one which i have not yet selfexcluded from unlike all the others i have self excluded from , when i saw the add it was almost like i became possesed and that night i dreamed opening a new account, and woke up in a sweat the next morning i also have chatted to a few friends recently about my gambling they were fine but i wished i hadnt as i dont know why but after telling them the urges to gamble were massive, and i litterally felt totally consumed by this urge at one point and shaking and very scared at one point of not being able to stop myself gambling and that is no egsaguration , the only thing that stoped me finding a new site and gambling bearing in mind i was in a complete gamble trance at the time bought on by a big urge , the only thing that stopped me gambling was thinking about my last bet how i felt after i lost the despair stupidity ect... so mate think of your last bet or last loss or biggest loss , as i promise you this will stop you going through with an urge. remember we cannot gamble because we cannot stop so theres no point starting. thanks simon

I am trying so hard...i told my husband that i am no longer gambling, he was surprised...i always win...if only he knew how much i actually spend to 'win' this is the first month in two years we will actually make it through to pay without borrowing from my mum..i am strangely proud 🙂 £20 a day minimum is what i had been spending we get paid every 28 days that at least £560 a month! i feel sick thinking about it and incredibly guilty at the fact my husband has been putting in more hours due to our increased 'bills'...if only he knew the biggest burden was his stupid wife!...I will not gamble today!

i feel sick...i havent gambled...yet...does anyone else get this feeling? xx

Hi all back and back at Day 1 feels different now, i came home i know i am able to deposit on the one site i favour as the deposit limit setting has been refreshed, but i dont want to, i usually do and something in me has changed...looking forward after a very bumpy road 🙁

So i slipped on the 3rd july and deposited £10 and lost it but since have been 100% gamble free...I googled new casino sites tonight but have actually pulled myself off before i joined and deposited...i am feeling like a small amount of my self worth is dripping back...i will not force my family to live without because i cannot stop!...I WILL NOT GAMBLE AGAIN!!!

Day 5, trying to find things to distract me :/

Stay strong phillips. Another day has gone by for you gamble free, so well done.

Mary

i broke and deposited £10 🙁 i know it could have been worse but its not great...i have self excluded from that site already even though i only joined last night, £10 wasted, its not a great deal of money its more what it reperesents which is my failure to control myself 🙁 feeling low