Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Hi Duncan, thank u 4 ur continued support and kind words on my diary. It means alot 🙂

U r an inspiration, ur positivity and determination shines thru. It is good 2 see how not gambling as improved ur life 🙂

U r doing brilliant, u deserve a reward 🙂

I hope u r able 2 get some rest soon!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Yo,

Well it looks like you have well and truly stepped up to mark. Takings fantastic , customers happy, well done you.

Spect your boss will be taking more holidays after this, safe in the knowledge that his ship has been captained by the best !

Dusty xxxxxxx

Spooky we posted at the same time then.

Think you need more work on your fish jokes, lol

Before you convince me hook line and sinker.

Dusty xxxxx

afternoon diary,Went to post last night, well the wee small hrs today and fell a kip, woke up at 5 this morning notebook still on and log-in page is all i got to

so I got up and snuck home for a coffee and a cuddle, my I cant even begin to tell you how good that felt roll on thursday night I say!!!!

Oh and brought the hound back to work and eldest took him home again a bit like a relay LOL( and all dirty washing dropped off unnoticed and in the laundry basket LOL)

Back at work and very quiet lunch I am presuming the football left no one in the mood heres hoping the Sun stays for a few days and it brightens all our lives further, I think we have all had enough rain in our lives.I knew buying that waxed coat would do it!! Well with a bit of help from them gamcare sisters!!!

So all is good here looking forward to relinquishing the keys on weds night oh and I learnt what a jageurbomb is LOL

Duncs stepping forward never back.

(Dusty I cod go on,but I haddock enough!!!)

HI Duncs,

Just stopping by to see how your doing and as always your doing just great... Sneaky cuddles eh cant beat them I bet the family and little hovis is missing you. I could of told you what a jagerbomb is there bloody leathal thats what lol. Enjoy the rest of your week counting down to wednesday.

Blondie 🙂 I love the fish jokes btw they are eely good lol

hiya Duncs.........

loved your little sneaky cuddles there ...surprised one heard you coming in but guessing it's cos your family are all good "kippers"....boom boom

Is that drink that german stuff at about 100 % proof??? ouch...it is lethal for sure...and a big hit with the students I believe...

Good to see you are in fine form Duncs and all is well on the south eastern/western front....(uk geog not my forte)

Keep on keeping on...always forward on the "roe-d" to recovery.....tee hee xxxx

Rach and Doo xx

Well my fav chef,

Can sense you smiling as you posted on mine and my sisters thread.

Needless to say you are more than welcome on the ledge , hope Sarah is not the jealous type.

No need for choc , just bring yourself, have no doubt you humor is more enough to bring to that party.

Sleep well, 2 more days , of carrying those keys to the plaice ( had to slip one one in somewhere , although it is not of the same scale as Rach lol)

Then a well deserved break.

Dusty xxxx

Morning Diary.

Well 22 weeks gamble free today and I feel like I am making good headway toward that light at the end of the tunnel.

Dusty in answer to your question I hope sarah is not jealous as I believe that in recovery anything thats good for it should be taken with both hands and put in that armoury store for when the urges come to haunt.

I think I used to be a jealous man, jealous of the success of other folks lives more over when it came through good fortune I thought foolishly that because I punted that I deserved the good fortunes and was bitter and forthright in these opinions, today I know I am very fortunate, for the fact that I do have a chance to have a happy excistance which is enlivened very much by many folk around me and in turn after my sarah and the kids who I simply cant express in words how much I do truly love and want to share life with comes my "gamcare" family a place were I know I wont be judged or judge and can always pull u a chair and share my recovery with to help and most of all be helped. Help another thing whilst at it I did not accept from anyone, today I know this is how to live a rich life help and accept help all you can, it really does make me a better person.

Still enough rambling I cant sleep no body to snuggle and I had a thought time will travel quicker awake lol!!!! 1 more sleep here then HOME!!!!

Duncs stepping forward never beck,compulsive gambler NO BET TODAY.

Afternoon Dunc.

Well done on 22 weeks-fantastic.

not long'til 6 months.

Keep up the good work.

Best wishes,

gazza

Hiya duncs

Home time for you and back into the warmth of your family and woof.... ...xx

Just read your post there and when i have a min i shall read the thread it came from but wanted to say that jealousy too has also haunted me in my life but i am also learning to make better choices..

They always say never compare recovery and i think thats true ....as we are all at different stages and points...

Also got me thinking about jealous and envy and how they are different....envy being a good thing as you can admire and emulate to raise our game but not feel threatened....i regularly feel envious of people on the up as I think "why didn't i do that"...but itts a good feeling as i get more inspired as to how to make changes in my life....

Jealously and the old green eye is another thing and destructive as you say....and i have been a sufferer and still can be...never over material things but over people....its in check now but has caused me great problems in the past ...

Funnily enough Dotty has helped with that....I love it when she trots round sitting on peoples knees and being generally lovely whilst scowling at me...in the past i would have been in tears and thinking she loved other people more than me...lol...

As a well socialised doggy i can leave her with an array of pals so i don't feel trapped whereas if she were clingy just to me it would restrict me a lot.

any way...carping again...i know i know...its been done!

hugs

Rach and Doo xxx

no need to "Scale" it back Dunc.....am made of "Sturgeon-er" stuff than that.....

"Salmons" gotta keep us from not falling off our "Perch"

......

Tee hee

xxx

Great last post horse i can really relate to it 4 me ronnie the addict is quite a different person from ronnie free from a bet in recovery.

Enjoy getting home to the family and your day off god knows u deserve it haha

Afternoon diary.

Well the bags are packed one more lock-up and up tomorrow a day to hand over and then an evening at the stoves before home to share a bed again!!!!!!

This week I learnt alot about myself, I can enjoy my own company no longer formulated an escape!!!used to left alone head straight to the bookies, this week I walked past a few on route for a paper each day and to be honest I dont even glance sideways. I have money in my pocket, it is my money and will stay there until I have good reason to spend it and I only carry a limited amount this is not through fear it is I have become much more prudent. I have seen what drink can do to a person good and bad!! it is amazing how it changes a persons behavour, I have been offered many drinks too which I have declined as I never mix work and alcohol as I have seen the devestating results when I spent 4years in London early in my career, many chefs were lost to that addiction and some top chefs I knew drunk there careers away. I do enjoy a pint and a couple will be had with my son this week who has helped massively again, also I learn not to panic more each day, strange in a kitchen I really dont get flustered, not a chef who throws his toys out of a pram, I want my anger and my teams harnessed into passion on a our plates. Last night at 6 my mum phoned as her husband was taken via ambulance to hospital with chest pain!! turns out at 70 getting on a roof to fix a tile and moving the bedroom furniture to decorate may have this affect!!!!!! so a lesson for them learnt and me I remained calm and made sure my mum asked the correct questions(they are in somerset we are pompey) and they are 30 miles from hospital so I think they will need to slow down and enjoy things and stop like me going gung ho.So in all a good week to take stock, realise this recovery is for me first and foremost but without my ever loving truly wonderfully beautiful Sarah it would not be any where near as much fun so tomorrow night will be a place for now I long to be.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Compulsive gambler NO BET today.

Hi Duncan, thank u 4 ur kind words on my diary. It means alot 🙂

Ur determination and positivity gives me soooo much hope. So thanks 🙂

It always makes me smile when I read wot u write about Sarah, she sounds like ur soul mate and u seem to make a gr8 partnership. Enjoy ur time together u deserve a rest Duncan. Keep inspiring 🙂

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

hay Dunc....

Hope all has calmed down on the family front and your mum and her partner are okay...

A bit of a shocker but you handled in well.

Glad to see you in fine fettle and also joining in the fun that i believe originated from the fairy tank and not the lush kitchens of the South coast as I thought....hmmmmmm...my detective powers are slipping......

had a hoot and a holler today and spent the whole of it LOL ...laffing out loud but working hard too...,

Made me realise our trade used to be fun and then it got all serious and boring...

Glad you also held onto your chefs hat and rode the storms and didn't go the way of your other contemporaries.....probably very talented folk but demons got the better....

One step forward...keeping on keeping on...never back.....

hugs and wuffs

Rach and DOo xx.