Another fresh start

Hi

i am returning to the forum after a bit of a slip up this week. Basically due to gambling debt I have an IVA of which I now have around 20 payments left so that is going down slowly but surely. I keep managing to quit for a few weeks or months but seem to slip back into it. This time it has been over the last week, it really is crazy when I think about the stupid bets I place. Anyway I have self excluded which is the only way anyone has a chance. I am trying not to beat myself up about this slip. My life right now is better than ever, I have managed to reduce my bills enough so that I can actually save a little bit even whilst in the IVA and it's actually the first time in years when I'm getting to pay day and still have money on the bank. I have also just managed to pay for a holiday and things with the girlfriend are going great. I really feel guilty for letting her down since this would really hurt her, although it is solely my money. So basically things are pretty good but I just need to refocus and sort my head out again. It's like every now and then I just go out of control and suddenly I say to myself that's it I'm done and it really does feel like a relief once you have self excluded. As always I know the first few weeks are the hardest, but at least this time I am not struggling with money since I have stopped in time. Just feels better to write this down and hope for some response, thanks for your support, dan