Back to the begining again

Day 18 - another busy day today, and hopefully another day away from those blasted slot machines.

Day 19, looks like it ia going to be another busy day so on the plus side no oppurtunities to play those blasted slot machines.
No real urges to gamble just discusted everytime I think about the amount of time & money I have lost in those gaming centres which could have been spent doing things more constructive.

Oh well you live and learn.

Soon be time to head out to work and earn a few more quid that Teddy's, Nobles or Admirals amusemeng centres will not be getting.

Day 20, had a few urges yesterday to go and play the slots, but managed to resist them. The weekend is almost upon us and it is my usual time to slope off and play them, going to have to stay strong and resist any urges.

No real urge to gamble today, although a few thoughts popped into my head earlier when i had finished work but came straight home.
I think the key to beating this is to keep myself busy & occupied.
Tommorow will be 3 weeks smoke free and gamble free.
Need to stay focused and make my target of 50 days gamble & smoke free.

Day 21 today, hopefully it will be another day notched up without smoking or sneaking off to play the dreaded slot machines already had a couple of thoughts this morning, going to have to keep myself busy today and stay away from any gaming centres.

Sparks709 wrote: Day 21 today, hopefully it will be another day notched up without smoking or sneaking off to play the dreaded slot machines already had a couple of thoughts this morning, going to have to keep myself busy today and stay away from any gaming centres.

Keep adding to your recovery tools. keep going

Day 21 managed to go shopping in town without even going in an arcade, had quite a few thoughts of going in especially as a found a new one that i had never been in.
Instead bought myself a couple of jackets instead, spent a small fortune on them, but least i have something to show for my money instead of spending all day in arcade.

Thats 3 weeks gamble & smoke free, although it's not the longest i have abstained for, but this time i am determined not to relapse

Day 22 today, got a few chores to do today & paperwork to be completed for work, hopefully a busy day that will keep me from gambling.

Day 23 - hopefully another day which will be productive and another day free of the slot machines & cigs.
Not had many real urges yesterday but i know from past experience those thoughta and urges can & will enter my head at any time, just goy to stay strong and not act on the impulses.

Day 24 - had no real urges to gamble or smoke, it's like someone has turned a switch of inside my head and all thoughts have gone.
Although i know it will probably turn itself on when i least expect it. The only way to beat this is to keep myself busy and occupied, stay away from gaming centres, pubs, bookies and anywhere else that fruit machine's reside.
As the time is passing the big grey cloud over me is starting to gradually lift, still a very long way to go.

Day 25 - keep myself busy today, should not be much of a problem as i will be working all day and coupled with a poor nights sleep.

Hopefully another day gamble free & smoke free.

Day 25 nearly done with, half way now to my 1st target of 50 days.
Not had any real urges to gamble, but starting to think about what my triggers are.
They are usually due to me feeling fed up, depressed or generally f***** off with people, going to have to work on dealing with these emotions better, because in the end it is only me, my health and bank balance that suffer.

Well done on 25 days gf and the smoking. Your doing so well doing the two together. Stay positive and strong best wishes x

Thanks anon for the supportive comment, smoking seems to go hand in hand with the gambling for me, usually when i am loosing, so stoppimg both is the only option.

Day 26 - hopefully another day gamble free and smoke free, all ive got to do is keep usy between now and tonight.

Well day 27 is nearly over and no urges to gamble or smoke, not had much chance anyway as been busy working all day.
The weekend tomorrow, going to set myself a few goals to have complete by next week, nothing major but just to keep myself busy and away from the slot machines.
Going to start and work on what triggers me to play the slots as well, i'm going to have to be more tolerant and not get stressed/f***** off by peoples actions or usually inactions. Also not going to worry about money when work dries up for a few weeks.