Back to the begining again

Day 66 today, had a few thoughts/impulses to play ghe slots not sure why, probably because i have broken up from work for xmas.
Still got to go into town to get a few things.

It always seems that it is around this time when i am trying to stop that I relapse, but this year it will be different, i will not allow myself to be drawn back into that lifestyle although for.some reason every other tbought that comes into my head today is about playing the slots, strange that none of the negative emotions come into my head, the money and time lost.

I will.just keep.reminding myself of how I felt when I finally came off my last gmbling session and the realisation of the amount of money i had just lost on fobt and slots.

I will beat this, the rest of this year and all next year will be gmble free.

Well made it through today, been into town with money in my pocket and did not go in the arcades although the thoughts were in my head.
So thats sixty six days now, smoke and gamble free

Well day 67 is upon me and its going to be another day smoke and gamble free.
Feeling slightly positive today,

So tough as it is at this time of year, maybe you need to lay off the drink, because from what you say, choosing to drink may mean you are choosing to gamble....you don't want to go there.

Day 68, another day that's going to be gamble and smoke free

Yeah Rhoda, I know drinking may lead to a relapse of the gambling and smoking but I hope my resolve to abstain/stay off the fruit machines is stronger than the urge to play.
I have to stay strong and positive and will not alliw this addiction to rule my life anymore, it is time to take back control and attack things head on.
I want this momentum to continue as i want to start 2017 with 77+ days gamble free and make 2017 my first year gamble free since thus addiction took hold.

Day 69, not sure whats in store for today, supermarket & maybe a bit of last minute shopping, but one thing is for sure it's going to be a gamble free & smoke free day.

Sparks709 wrote: Day 69, not sure whats in store for today, supermarket & maybe a bit of last minute shopping, but one thing is for sure it's going to be a gamble free & smoke free day.

Decided to join you in the smoke free zone - today is day 81 for Gambling and day 1 for Smoking.

Have a good one!

Sbb

Good luck with the stopping smoking sbb, it's almost as hard as stopping gambling.

Well when today is over with it will be 10 weeks since my last cig or quid put in the slots, still strange that i keep thinking about the arcades and just going in for quick ВЈ20 to see what happens, don't know why i keep thinking about it, but i know deep down there is no quick £20 to a compulsive gambler who will put whatever money he can get his hands on in the machine.
So I will not give in to these urges and will keep reminding myself of the losses, the depression and the anxiety and hopefully this will keep me away from the slots.

Another day thats going to be gamble and smoke free.

Heading towards my next target off 77 days which will be new years eve, can't think of a better way to start the new year than been gamble and smoke free.

Bring it on.

Boxing day is here, not sure what to do. I wanted to go out and get on it today, but now the day is here I am not so sure. If I go out will I be able to keep off the slots that will be flashing at me on every pub i visit, how will my resolve hold up the more drink i consume & thats without the urge's for a cig.
What to do, who knows, might just go to sales but even going into town can be dangerous with the arcades and bookies.
I cannot let the fear of relapsing rule my life but has enough time elapsed yet, going to have spend some time think & contemplating my future this morning.

Another day is here, and it's going to be another day gamble & smoke free.

Got a bit of shopping to do, some paperwork for work and then spend a bit of time contemplating & reflecting on what has caused this addiction to prosper over the last 20 years and what I can do to stay on the wagon so to speak.

Sparks709 wrote: Another day is here, and it's going to be another day gamble & smoke free. Got a bit of shopping to do, some paperwork for work and then spend a bit of time contemplating & reflecting on what has caused this addiction to prosper over the last 20 years and what I can do to stay on the wagon so to speak.

Delighted you got through Boxing Day (I did too), not sure how you ended up dealing with it, me ? - I just chose to stay in just in case.

Ill be waiting for you at the 100 line 🙂

Sbb

Hi Sbb, thanks for the comment. In the end I decided to stay in on boxing day because the state i would have got into would have meant i would be smoking and all most certainley would have broke my resolve to keep off the bandits, but i am meeting friends in town later in week for food and drinks which will be my first real test.

Hopefully i will be joining you on 100+ days, feeling better everyday that pases but had a few thoughts & butterfly's in my stomach today when I passed one of my old haunts, but coming on here seems to give me a bit of focus and resolve to keep out.

I know though never to get too complacement as i have been trying to stop since at least 99/00

Another day, nothing much happening today. Going to have a chilled out day, a day that will not involve any form of gambling and no smoking.