Boxing Day 1

Congrats on your continued success Clare.
Addiction isnt a financial problem thats just a symptom of our illness. When we convince ourselves that its about the money we find the urges flooding back when there is a few quid sloshing around after stopping for a while. Hope you dont mind me poking my nose in just thought it might help explain why you had the thought its only £20 the other day

Dan

Thanks Dan.

All advice is very welcome thanks for dropping by my diary. The problem I have is that I still feel I could control my spending on gambling if given another chance. I know it sounds crazy but I have these thoughts a lot. How do I convince myself I can't gamble in moderation without it being problematic ???

For now I'm trying to convince myself !

80 days today Claire, proud of you.

As NT says one bet would lead to disaster, simply because we cannot control our gambling, we cannot stop once we start whether we win or not, Infact if we win it makes us worse lol.

Keep winning by abstaining and maintaining one day at a time it's the best way for us to go.

Take care, stay safe and enjoy your recovery, you are doing just fine.

Suzanne xxx

81 days done.

What stops me from the £20 spend is the day counting and knowing I'm slowly getting out of debt.

I know you are right and I must remember that I will slip back into heavy gambling if I dare to indulge.

Really helps to have the days counting up and the 2015 challenge. These things go a long way to stopping me acting on the urges that still come when I've got free time.

I will try to remember that one tiny bet will lead to disaster. The problem is believing it. As this is the first attempt at totally quitting gambling I guess I don't have the benefit of my own hindsight. But if I think about it long enough with enough logic I can truly believe and accept I cannot have one tiny bet. I simply cannot risk going back to my previous lifestyle.

Not long now till 100 days that's a good goal to reach. I'll definitely get there !

84 days done 🙂

No urges past few days - just one I think - stupid TV advert got me thinkin, but only a brief urge. I've been unwell and laid up in bed past few days and couldn't have gambled anyway - too ill to do anything but sleep . Having said that - in the past I'd probably still have gambled !

Still not well really but beginning to feel a bit better. Early night tonight again .

Yes I will count on your hindsight and knowledge NT and I do know that a small gamble will lead to future debt and disaster. Aside from anything else I no longer have access to credit cards etc and it would seriously worry me to spend all my wages and have no way of getting more money.

87 days :)) and still winning !!

Yes three months and three figures will soon be here !!

89 days and feeling positive about getting to three months and 100 days just around the corner.

Hey there,

Whoop whoop on your amazing work beating this nasty disease!
Keep up good work and positivity will only get stronger each day you abstain!

Treat yourself with something nice on your milestone..you're surely worth it ☺

Take care and keep fighting

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra. Spa weekend this weekend for my treat to myself 91 days done 😀

I never want to go back to the world of gambling money that wasn't even mine. Overdrafts n credit cards !

Thank god I am managing to stay free from gambling this long and hope it continues !

92 days Claire very well done.

Enjoy your treat, you surely deserve it,

Keep strong

Suzanne xxx

93 days now 🙂 and thank you Suzanne. I'll enjoy every minute !

94 days and going good 🙂

Thanks for your support Claire and may I add how fantastic you are doing 94 days of winning and the goings good.

Keep marching and stay positive that 100 is just round the corner.

Suzanne xx