Crossroads

Day 9

A tonne of money left my account today but I didn't feel bad about it as I was paying people off who were good for lending me the money in the first place.

I haven't had any real urges either, it's just amazing to think what you can achieve financially when you don't gamble

Sam

Well done Sam, you have taken a giant step by starting a diary and setting up those payments. You should be proud of yourself for what you have done, just take it one day at a time, what is gone is gone but you can affect the future.

Paulds

I really appreciate it paulds I think you feel lost when battling this and struggle to find what's right but I feel that paying off debt will lift a lot of weight. And once I'm past the loans I feel I could never go back

Day 10

It just shows how fast time goes when I'm back here already updating my diary!

Had a hard shift at work but it's all good! I seem very career focused at the moment and as long as I stay away from gambling the money will sort itself.

I continuously try not to let the past get the better of me but as time goes by it gets easier. I will continue this diary even if I feel I'm through it all!

Sam

Day 11

Can't believe how fast this is going but I will never take this addiction for granted as it can always creep up on me!

Had a smooth shift at work and a relaxed evening where I cooked for myself and enjoyed a fine bottle of wine. Was meant to have a girl over but just didn't feel like it unfortunately.

Sam

Day 11

Can't believe how fast this is going but I will never take this addiction for granted as it can always creep up on me!

Had a smooth shift at work and a relaxed evening where I cooked for myself and enjoyed a fine bottle of wine. Was meant to have a girl over but just didn't feel like it unfortunately.

Sam

Day 12

just a straight forward day at work really. With doing split shifts and 5 days a week its pretty easy to stay from gambling. time goes fast this way aswell so in around 3 weeks ill be half way to paying my friends /family off

Sam

well done sam keep it up, imagine how you'll feel when your diary hits 100 days. congratulations and stay strong, spend wise, live free!

thank you kindly dontchase, it is crazy how many times how ive tried to quit. even if you hit a years theres always a chance of going back. but this is my first time ever doing a diary so i wont get a chance to be complacent. upon hitting 100 days it will be nice to look back and see how far ive come.

all the best

Sam

Day 13

A very quiet and slow day at work with the break in the middle. Im starting to learn alot at work and its nice to have something steady. though the times i reflect on gambling it hurts but some wounds take longer to heal!

Sam

Day 14

Two weeks up and ive had no urges and i feel great about the progress im making. ill feel alot better when my money situation irons itself out but that will just take time!

have a good day everyone!

Sam

Well done on the 2 weeks Sam, it sounds like you are making great progress. Reading your first post was quite harrowing and i really hope you beat this- stay focused and don't let up!

Thanks buckeroo, it's been very damaging to say the least and it completely ruined life for me. I just want to stay away from it and lead a normal life,

Sam

Day 15

I had my 7th day of work in a row, which I didn't really mind as i didn't spend a penny the whole time. I have enough to comfortably live on and I have plenty of things to keep me entertained for free! But I'm happy and that's the main thing!

Sam

Day 16

I had a well earned day off and took it easy to be fair. I cleaned through the flat, did some shopping and worked on my to do list. I also grabbed an early night at the end of it. I'm strongly considering chipping away at my loan in big amounts. there's nothing I want to buy and I cant wait for that feeling when its finally clear. its sad to think I would have a loan over my head for a period of 10 years.

but in hind sight if im not gambling I will able to save a lot too

sam