Crossroads

Day 54

A nice and quiet monday, stress free and a nice way to recover after a pretty c**P weekend! Im just going to keep everything as it is as i have alot to look forward too next year in the form of holidays and moving in with my best mates in eastbourne.

Sam

Day 55

We had a slow lunch service with around 16 guests dining. ive been given a bit of extra responsibility as i will be helping largely with our cocktail evening that we do each month. Im looking to get a new laptop so what i think im going to do is save around a £100 a month and buy on as a moving out present. Im also going to start up a pension and pay back people a bit slower than i am now. there needs to be a fine line between paying of debts and having money to enjoy things.

Sam

Hi Sam,

Well done on 55 days, your post is very positive, keep going and stay strong.

Suzannexx

Thank you kindly suzanne. gambling has been so damaging! i have to move on big time! x

Day 56

Not much to say really I started work at 3 and it went pretty smooth. I found out one of our bar team is leaving us in the new year. Which is a shame but it's nice that people move on with their lives when they need to.

Sam

Day 57

Bit of a blur as I had too much to drink and I have a pretty bad hangover from it! Played pool and snooker all day to be fair and not a lot else. Did resist the temptation to play the fruit machines which isn't easy after having a few to drink!

Sam

Day 58

Had the hangover from hell which prettyy much lasted the whole day. but it was the best day ever as i got to go devon to see my family and my favourite band at the plymouth pavilions! i seriously cant wait to see them in december but for a few more days

Sam

Day 59

Still felt really rough as i got barely any sleep after travelling back on the same night. so the whole day was a struggle! in the evening we had a wine tasting and i was able to learn about some of the wines from work. then we went out for a few drinks after.

Sam

Day 60

well that was a bad idea as i again didnt get much sleep and i felt like rubbish in the morning. pretty sure i have the flu too as i feel drained the whole time. really hope this clears off soon. just looking for this week to go really fast as its payday soon

Sam

Hi Sam

Great going 60 days well done on your hard work, I think abstaining every single day is going to drain us at times, it won't last keep

pushing through and keep winning.

Suzanne xx

Thanks suzanne, it really isnt easy. even though i rarely get urges im still left with debt and its emotionally draining. though im only get it cleared by not gambling anymore. hope your going well with your recovery x

Day 61

Was a good day to be fair, i worked in the restaurant during the lunch service which i did well at. just chilled on my break then had a really smooth evening with a nice and early finish. i actually had a chat with my manager after my shift where we got a bit clearer on my cocktail we are using for our cocktail evening next week. but to sum up my mood its pretty level at the moment. but thats fine!

Sam

Day 62

It was a pretty good day as i only had to work in the evening! though my nan was ill back home and i spent most of the day worrying

Sam

Day 63

had a 3 close shift. which went well and we got out at a reasonable time, was great to have a long chat with my friend mikey who im moving in with later this year. we discussed travelling which is something id love to do at some point. june will come fast and i will be happy to move on !!!

Sam

Day 64

Wow! oh how time flies! my target is 18 months and ill beat my record for not gambling. at that point i will have crushed most of my loan and i can be free. i feel for everyone on here at gambling ads are forced down your throat wherever you look. i just have to keep it together because i cant afford any blips at all! proud of what ive done so far but will be a lot happier when my money situation gets alot better. have a nice day all

Sam