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Phil72
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No respect to a poster elsewhere but my poison of choice was horses - on the nose or each-way. End of. So I would rather not be told about how a weird type of accumulator works, for example, thank you very much.

 
Posted : 2nd June 2017 1:38 pm
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Why not copy your annoyance onto the relevant post?

 
Posted : 2nd June 2017 3:10 pm
Phil72
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I did express myself elsewhere politely but I just wanted to post on own diary page for my own benefit.

 
Posted : 2nd June 2017 4:17 pm
Phil72
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Sorry I meant no "disrespect" not "respect". I just read my post again and saw my grammatical errors. Apologies.

 
Posted : 2nd June 2017 4:20 pm
Phil72
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My favourite solo Beatle was George Harrison (RIP) The song is called See Yourself:
"It's easier to tell a lie than it is to tell the truth
It's easier to kill a fly than it is to turn it loose
It's easier to criticize somebody else
Than to see yourself
It's easier to give a sigh and be like all the rest
Who stand around and crucify you while you do your best
It's easier to see the books upon the shelf
Than to see yourself
It's easier to hurt someone and make them cry
Than it is to dry their eyes
I got tired of fooling around with other people's lies
Rather I'd find someone that's true
It's easier to say you won't than it is to feel you can
It's easier to drag your feet than it is to be a man
It's easier to look at someone else's wealth
Than to see yourself"

 
Posted : 3rd June 2017 8:56 pm
Phil72
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Excuse the grammar (my dyslexia).

 
Posted : 3rd June 2017 9:02 pm
Phil72
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This is not a political post but wow I definitely have heightened emotions since I stopped gambling and started coming off those horrible pills.

I had some tearful moments watching the One Love Manchester concert and I felt a lot of sincerity there. The recent events in Manchester and London would have upset me a year or so ago of course but I don't think I would have been quite so emotional as my head would have been elsewhere.....

 
Posted : 5th June 2017 11:56 am
Phil72
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What I feel, I can't say
But my love is there for you, any time of day
But if it's not love that you need
Then I'll try my best to make everything succeed
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am I without you, by my side?
What I know, I can do
If I give my love now to everyone like you
But if it's not love that you need
Then I'll try my best to make everything succeed
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am I without you, by my side
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am I without you, by my side?
What I feel, I can't say
But my love is there for you any time of day
But if it's not love that you need
Then I'll try my best to make everything succeed
Tell me,
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am I without you, by my side
Oh tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am I without you, by my side?
 
Posted : 5th June 2017 8:15 pm
Phil72
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Love not animosity - again George. d**n I miss him and he died so young but his lyrics are so beautiful and relate so much to my issues. We all have different opinions here but I believe we are on the same journey....the yellow brick road or whatever. Best wishes, Phil.

 
Posted : 5th June 2017 8:17 pm
Phil72
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No more me, me, me - no more dismissiveness about other people's issues unless it was a big crisis. Being moved by current events, having emotions and caring again - that to me is recovery.

There are a lot of cruel and messed up people in this world. For example, I had to deal with a d-head who referred to my beautiful African wife with the "N" word recently but I genuinely feel most people are living their lives their way and feel no hostility or want no animosity. Love is the answer.

 
Posted : 6th June 2017 8:14 pm
alainepo
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That person who said that about your wife truly was a d-head and a lot more besides that would all be censored out if i typed it. What an awful thing to have to listen to and well done for not head butting that person. Yes i would hope that was more an isolated incident than a common incident, i feel ashamed to be of the same species as someone who could say something like that to another person.

 
Posted : 6th June 2017 9:17 pm
Phil72
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Thank you. I love my wife but treated her badly when I was gambling but I would not have put up with that kind of comment and would have ended up in the cells because my head was such a mess.

 
Posted : 6th June 2017 9:48 pm
Phil72
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Dear diary: One thing I can't understand which is people who have been using the forum for several years (longer than me) and I am in no way having a dig but I looked at a couple of profiles then the posts and the non-specific people were still asking for advice about stopping gambling? It will help me on my journey to get some advice as I do not want to gamble again one day at a time in my own way. Please constructive criticism only and good responses or none. Best wishes, Phil.

 
Posted : 7th June 2017 8:46 pm
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I guess people keep asking the same question hoping for a different answer, an easier solution?

People like yourself who don't want to go to go down a specific route because of previous bad experience, others who have had treatment/counselling hoping to be cured, people who want to be able to gamble again (without losing) & others who haven't yet found the strength to face their demons. I'm not a statistician & I haven't been around recovery from addiction enough to be an authority on it but I've seen enough to say with some conviction, addiction doesn't just go away. It requires sustained effort for any level of longievity & I know for me, a huge fan of the quick fix, that's a bit of a ball ache!

Keep an open mind & keep working on you is all I have to offer I'm afraid!

& yes, abject shame on that person who let themselves down so horrendously when talking about your wife...I'm not @ the stage where I can pray for their souls but I do think that people like that are not worth our thoughts.

 
Posted : 7th June 2017 9:42 pm
Phil72
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Thanks for the response ODAAT and your comment about my wife. Best wishes, Phil.

 
Posted : 8th June 2017 11:05 am
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