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Yo.

Just sending you a hug!

Keep on keeping on!

Will we get there ?

Maybe ?

Will we give up fighting ?

NEVER!!!!!!!!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes ((( Shiny )))

Never ever give up freaking fight!!!!!!!! Thanx hun

http://youtu.be/Okt5763unIA

Day at a time

No freaking gambling!!

S x

Hiya Sandra jut dropping in, it's great to see your still flying along and not giving in to those urges. They'll come but they'll quickly go if dealt with properly. You should be proud of how far you've come and what you have achieved. It's been a pleasure and a privilege to watch your recovery get better and better and yourself get stronger and stronger. All the best to you thank you for all the support and advice you have given me in the past it means so much. Take care.

Hi Sandra,

Hope all is well with you and that you are still on the straight and narrow in terms of recovering from this addiction. Every day is a small victory, and nothing worth fighting for is ever easy.

All the best warrior

Ryan

Hey all and thank you so much xxx

Good to hear from you Dave, hope all is good with urself 🙂

Bob, no worries my friend - keep calm and carry on!!!

Dear diary,

Keep plodding along,, went to my fav place yesterday, seaside of course lol,, and read my diary through,, like you do on thoughtful days lol,, god d**n, how things changed since I joined the recovery road with all of you dear soldiers. Recovery is truly bespoke, and the main thing I learned is being honest with urself and others, and you get out of life as much as you put in :-))

Not much change around in my little world, but I'm still taking it day at a time. Accepting good and bad days, treasuring what I've got,, which is beat in my heart with every waking day. Nothing changes if nothing changes and I'm moving towards that change at my own space. Some things in life worth waiting for, and patience is important thing on a way.

I remembered all of you yesterday, every single one who I had opportunity to communicate with. The laugh, tears, anger frustration.,, being accused of making "life soap" on here and not talking about gambling all the time lol,, even that raised a smile on this face lol lol..

Many of you are not as active on here anymore,I miss you greatly but believe you all found what you were looking for..your support is never forgotten, and much appreciated.

No gambling for me, just nasty cold I cought lol,, so, trying to wrap myself up with yukky warm milk and honey in my hands lol...

Few tunes I shared before, which left big inprint in my heart..bringing memories back,, and reminding me why I should carry on on straight and narrow.

Day at a time soldiers, anything is possible!!!!

Rihanna - what now

http://youtu.be/b-3BI9AspYc

Avicii - hey brother

http://youtu.be/6Cp6mKbRTQY

Icona Pop - I love it

http://youtu.be/UxxajLWwzqY

Sandra over and out,

Peace to all

God bless

S xx

Sandra

glad to read your resolve is still growing my dear friend, as you say many good folk have gifted our lives upon this journey, something unconditionally you have done to others too.

Abstinence

The gift that keeps giving.

Keep taking, keep sharing

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Sandra and glad to read that your moving along nicely. Like you say... honest with self and others... and getting out of life what you put in... and above all, having patience... good things come to those who can defer instant gratification.

Take care soldier... S.A 🙂

Hey Sister!

Thanks for the affirmation. Came along at exactly the time that I needed it. Keep being you!! ((((((Sandra)))))) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGBLlFMn9Xc

Huh, not sure what happened there but, wanted to send you "the walker"...

Hey Sandra

My fellow foot soldier 🙂 cheers as always for posting on my diary. You really are a thoughtful wee soul and give support to so many people on here. I believe in Karma and you are due a whole heap of good Karma. If its not with you yet believe me its in the post!! So plenty to look forward to.

Love the tunes.. music is a massive part of my life (mind you probably a massive part in most people's lifes). I think you can lose yourself in music.. love it. Quite often i'll have myself wee youtube nights where i just listen to loads and loads of random music on youtube for hours on end. I find this so relaxing more so than reading books but that's just me.

So any other good music you come across please share with me..

I love this song by Depeche Mode - NEW LIFE... fitting to most of us on here i feel.. brilliant band and good wee

tune http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51HY3gcWiJA

Another cracking wee song that brings back memories for me... good and bad.. reckless and madness...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Us2amaAcIQ

Anyway, i've decided to turn the dread of Sunday evening into a wee music night 🙂

Cheers

Craig

Hi Sandra

Full of admiration for you on how well your recovery is now goin and that's the least you deserve with all the hard work you have put in I remember at times the pain you went through and felt it with you so its just the best feeling ever to share it with you now when its oh such much better

As always I thank you for all your support on and off the forum its a just a pleasure to have your association

Take care

Castle2

Hey guys, thank you so much...really appreciated..thank youxxx ... i will get bk to you soon ...

Diary,

Not sure where to start. Not the best of places i find myself in today. Tired of pushing a smile through gritted teeth..appologies who read this, not much about gambling. I am pushing myself with all my might away from it..will not gamble, don't need that feeling to top it off...where i am now. Destroying habit, waste of f*****g time, nervs and soul anyway... fake image of calmness and peace...ha...what a b*****ks!!!...(excuse my language dear readers).....mirage in a f*****g desert eh...i better go and let the thirst finish me off...before i turn back to devils hands...

....ok..so, lovely lovely work!!! How many of us finding ourselves struggling with it in our lives...fantastic!!...it's only work, getting paid, leave it behind after it's over...

...ha...what about responsibilities, caring, achieving, trying, making gold out of f*****g s**t..letting it take over ur life, loosing sleep,crying.....and few more...

....to b s**t on!!! Absolutely great isn't it diary..tired of it all. I can't do better than i'm pushing myself already. I can't get in others minds and mk a decision for them, i can't let them think "we got away with it b4,so let's do it again"...and i cant take their responsibilities on my shoulders..i carry enough of my s**t already...i can't make miracles happen....i only can do my best.....my best is not enough..

no more...

will not gamble today

just needed to get my feelings out..thank you diary...dorry readers..

another day...hurry up f*****g Wednesday...i might lose sleep tonight, but i wil not let you get to me on my days off...

ramble officialy over...

S x

Lol Sandra all I will say is LIFE how we cope us our choice amazing post loved it hope your well x

The bear x

Hi Sandra,

I know how you feel, sometimes work makes me up my swear-word density to over 50%, as it can be a f*****g pile of bollocking-f*****g-s**t-w***s at times, and my boss can shove his f*****g head into the sh*tty white throne of arsiness.

Let's see how gamcare's filters deal with that! Hope you're still boxing, its great to get the aggression out!

Life's problems still come whether we gamble or not I guess, I think its just that gambling doesn't amplify our other problems, as you say, you don't need that on top of everything else. Hope hump day goes well then its freewheeling to the weekend.

Ryan

Thank you guys,

Dear diary,

Another day g free. Today is better day, I had my 6hrs sleep lol. Woopee!!!! Leaving work thoughts where they belong - at work. Haven't got much to say today, and I think it's good thing for once 😉

Have a good day all

Day at a time

https://www.youtube.com/watch…;feature=youtube_gdata_player

S xxx