Going to keep this thread now!

Hi Freda.

That last post of yours sounds like your having a really hard time as of late.Really hope you get through it ok.Try not to get too depressed Freda.

Good thing is your not gambling and i hope you feel better soon.

Take care freda and wishing you all my best!

Viggo.

thanks Viggo

I'm feeling better than I did yesterday, but just fed up and weary. I am gutted about the way things have gone for me lately, and feel a lot of anger.

However, I do believe much of the anger was to do with the pig ignorant behaviour of the DWP staff. They ignored 10 call back requests in a row, and when you ring to complain it takes about 20 minutes to get through. Once you complain, they make it higher 'priority' and send another request for someone to ring you back within the hour. The first call that the DWP returned was on Friday afternoon - 6 working days after a supervisor was supposed to call me back within the hour!!!! It took them 2 weeks in total to return my call. By that point I was absolutely incandescent with rage.

I sympathised with them to an extent, as they will have had to make staff cuts at a time of extremely high numbers of claims - however, it is completely unforgivable to take 2 weeks to call someone when your policy states it should take you 1 hour.

At least I won't have to deal with that anymore. I am quite a patient person, but I have become so angry over the past week, and it is still coming out now.

However, today was day 67 and I did not gamble.

Well 67 days is fab, well done. Chill out this weekend, regroup your thoughts and go get what you can. Loves xxx

Thank you Sam.

I had the opportunity to reflect last night, and put my recent experiences into perspective using my spiritual belief system. In this way I am turning these experiences into a positive.

The reaction I had, although perfectly understandable to many, is a sign of my weak mind. Someone with a strong and peaceful mind would not have reacted by experiencing such pain. Do I want to prevent myself from experiencing this kind of intense pain? Absolutely. So I can use this as motivation to put effort into my spiritual practices. To develop and strengthen my mind.

Today is day 68, and I will not gamble.

Hi Freda

I sympathise with you with your recent experiences with DWP. It is tough times we live in and we feel it is just us tat is getting a raw deal. Having no income is no fun! You could go to your local MP as they have inroads to getting things done. But what I would say is your main priority in life is to not gamble. If you do not gamble you have a chance to get things sorted. If you do gamble there are consequences. I'm sure you didn't really need me to tell you this but I thought I'd pass by on your diary and let you know I'm with you. Take care

Freda,

How are you after your dilemma earlier in the week which upset you? Hope you are doing well.

Bobby

I have now been told by my old employer, that I might not get my old job back. It seems there is a reason why they have been stalling me for so long. They have to offer my job first to all the people who were made redundant recently. If no one else wants it, then I can have it.

So I have been waiting around for 2 months with no income, on the basis that they promised me my old job back. They were not being truthful. However, it was in their interests to keep me waiting in the background incase no one else wanted it.

I think it could be fair to say that I have had better weeks.

Hi f . I have passed on my e-mail details , however should you not wish to cantact me I fully understand . I feel an empathy in part as we both suffer from less than perfect mental health .

After 40 years of fighting it I think why bother . 40 years of tax will earn me a bit from the state and why not .

My lovely wife , now a lady of 60 has started some pensions . State and second state ones are kicking out next May .

My goodness , we have enough to get by and I want her to pack in at Christmas . She is a very loved career working for a bunch of chite bags who can`t even give her enough car allowance to cover costs . She is really struggling with this due to working class ethic . Almost unheard of these days . Sure as heck I don`t get sleepless nights about it knowing the benefit fraudsters that I know .

Get everything paid for , plus some for your pocket and still work on the side and blatent about it .

We did have a rant didn`t we . Why not ?

Going to tell you a true story but only in part as I am still scared of what could happen nearly 30 years later .

I was a Labour party activist and lived in Tory land . Election day for the local council . I was shifted to a marginal as a helper . The hopeful counsellor we were trying to get elected , asked me to do something that was very illegal . Basically to do with voting fraud . Of course I said no . Had I been caught it would be a likely prison sentance for me and I am pretty sure he would have not , later , got into Parliament and did 3 full terms . He must have a nice pension .

All I am saying is to heck with the corrupted system . We are ruled by toffs who have little understanding of what it is like for many .

In a way I am shattered by all this . I hate the way we celebrate the useless , the losers that ruin peoples lives yet we send `um away with gold plated pensions for failure .

I guess not working has allowed me to spend time seeing all the rubbish we are fed with and I am grateful for that .

f , my apologies for a rant on your diary but I am not happy how you have been treated .

Graham with an x

Thanks Graham, you are a doll face 🙂

Day 70 done and dusted - a woo hoo!

70 70 70 . Get inthere gal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday morning, after receiving bad news about my job the day before, I got a call to say that I could start on a temporary contract as soon as the paperwork is signed. However, I am not holding my breath.

Just want this sorted out one way or another, and am still searching for other jobs in the interim.

A huge positive to come out of this, is that I seem to be coping really well. Very minimal anxiety/depression considering.

Hi Freda. Glad to see you're coping better and better with day to day things. That's beautiful and what recovery is about. Sending lots of love. By the way. No insensitive question on my diary at all. I have made arrangements for you guys to be told as and when I no longer can. My angel has been given instruction. I would like you all to write something supportive for my angel and my children as Michelle has kindly agreed to send a copy of my diary to my angel when the time comes. Keep strong my girl. I'm proud of you. xx

God Bless . Sabine x

Freda great to chat to you. Try and be positive about urself because you are obviously a genuinely nice person!

The damage caused by gambling can be rectified - it does no harm to start telling urself good things!

Stay positive - bobby!

Day 73. I am bored and de-motivated. I wish I had a job! Even 4 hours a week would be better than nothing.

I am not inspired by housework. I do the minimum of course, we don't live in filth, but it is a real chore. It is not the physical effort of housework I loathe, its just boring.

I am off for a workout on my stepper now, then shower and go out for a wander. I am so glad I self excluded from my old haunts when I did - so much time on my hands, and being bored witless could have been a recipe for disaster otherwise.

Even though I am flat and a bit bored, I will not gamble today!

Hi Freda.

Can understand your not inspired by house work! Housework is boring.

But at least your not gambling,and it was a good move excluding yourself from your old haunts!

Hope alls well otherwise with you?

Take care and hope you have a great weekend!

Viggo.