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Hey SA,

Glad to read you moving on strong and certain. It is always good to set ourselves some goals...so much nicer when we achieve them 🙂

Keep it up..doing rather FANTASTIC!!! 😉

S x

Day 387 gambling free and thanks both 🙂

All is fine today. I have just had a cracking run... under the hour for 7 miles, which included hilly bits.

No gambling problems. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Dee do run run run dee doo run run...

Excellent SA

Just serenading ya there over the 7 mile mark xx

Day 388 and thanks Rach 🙂

Every day is different isn't it. I would like to work in an environment where most people were on a similar wave length to me OR I'd love to be in an environment where I could pick and choose whom I worked with. But I don't and I can't and it makes parts of the working day stressful when parts of the working day really shouldn't be that stressful.

I don't actively dislike anybody at my work. In fact I'd enjoy a beer with any or all of my colleagues, but sometimes I just want to shake certain people and say "do your job!!"... because when people don't do there job properly its the likes of me who have to take up the slack.

Deal with clients behaviours, interact with clients for ******** sake.. don't just sit there like a numpty or pretend that nothing is happening or go off to do stuff that can wait or just go off! It gets so frustrating it does. A client got injured today because staff didn't have their priorities right ie they wernt supporting their client!!

The really difficult part for me is that I find myself rushing from client to client, one moment frog marching a client into a quiet room, the next minute feeding someone and the next minute wiping someone's a**e! ...and I don't mind wiping a**e lol but I do mind wiping a**e when it shouldn't be my responsibility to wipe said a**e at that moment because said client is supposedly someone elses responsibility at that time!!... but then I wipe the a**e anyway, cos the a**e needs wiping and ya can't have a client with an unwiped a**e.. cos its tantamount to abuse... and so on and so on....

I am a good support worker and I am physically fit and I can run around all day and still go for a run in the evening but, but, but.... it ******** me off... there seems to be no end to it.. I can't find an end to it all.... I need to get away from the coal face of care but I do f*** all about it.... I get miserable and then I want to gamble... but I don't do that anymore... Its just hard that's all.

Thanks for listening and no gambling... S.A

P.s what makes it a lot worse, is that we have challenging needs. When you have clients who will hit out but also staff who are scared.. it makes it harder for the staff who are prepared to step up to the plate and managed difficult behaviours. It doesn't mean to say that it doesn't take its toll on those staff who do step up to the plate because it does. It takes its toll on the likes of me!!

P.s.s I am now the longest surviving staff member at my work. I feel like Sigourney Weaver as she leaps in to the fire in Aliens 3 to try and free herself from the alien within lol

P.s.s.s Am feeling pretty manic today, if you hadn't already noticed. Over tired me thinks. Goodnight!

P.s.s.s.s I have this overriding need to edit and re-edit this post. Another sure sign of feeling out of sorts. I will stop now...speeling mistakes and all.

P.s.s.s.s.s f*** f*** f*** f*** f*** f*** f*** fuckety f*** with brass k***s

P.s.s.s.s.s.s I am now happy with this post 😉

((((((( SA ))))))

Man...put it all down. It's good what you did. Oh so would lke just to have a chat with you now .. 🙂

You are awesome person, so caring and strong. You need to look after no 1 SA...

Keep posting, keep spitting and getting it all out...we are here, we are listening and we understand.

Is there any management you could talk to? It sounds really messed up situation in ur place. Shouldn't be like that.

I hate headworkers, f*****g leave them to it...just ignore lazy t***s and do ONLY your duties..

So sorry....SA..got my limits with anger here...just fully understand your frustration and would be the same. You don't deserve to be treated like that..

Keep being strong my friend. Don't let others get their own way!! You are worth more than that!!

Sandra x

P.s. sorry for swearing...try to have some rest tonight... xx But i am SSSOOO happy with ur post too 😉 keep dumping!!!! Everything !!!

Day 388 continues...

Thanks Sandra 🙂

Am not so sure its deliberately others being "head workers", its more a natural consequence of stress and doing the job that we do. Some people just aren't well suited to a caring role and yet they do the role.

Some people (in my opinion) can't interact well with others, they don't know how to or they don't have the confidence or the natural empathy and people skills. Also some people don't have a lot of common sense or practical skills or have the ability to think on their feet. Its not just younger people either.

Anyway enough. Thank you again Sandra... S.A 🙂

P.s am not saying am the worlds greatest support worker, cos am not. Am just dumping my s**t, am just mouthing off cos it helps.

Hey SA

Ditto S...You keep dumping and dump away !!

It's good to see you have a rant SA...I know work is testing and to be honest hats off mate cos I couldn't do it.

On the headworkers...I have spent a good few years thinking about this long before this forum..is it deliberate ? Is it not ?

The only answer I have come up with is that some people have worked out how to do very little so they are seldom asked and less is expected of them but have no guilt in watching others run around at 100mph.

It's a bit like the person who is asked to wash up and who does it badly or larks around so they are not asked again and they become even more lazy and lacking in initiative.

I have the same in my job...

Keep dumping SA..you are good at your job,

R and D. Xx

Hey SA,

Well, first of all ppl like that shouldn't take positions they have. If you are not trying to fulfill ur role, you shouldn't take the space i'm afraid...that's my point of view..

The rest..just ditto Rach..you are more than good at what you do and i really hope one or another change will come along soon..xx

Thank you for listening ( reading ) 😉

Have a good one tomorrow 🙂 xx

Hello there sa been a while. I'm not as active as I once was but glad to see works as good as ever! Sorry for missing your year post - can't believe it's been a year already! Really well done. To keep at it and stay strong for 365 is brilliant and keep it up, power forward into the new year. Well played sir and keep it going its moments like this from people like you that keep me going.

Day 390, with not a penny gambled in that time.

Thanks all. Iv'e been feeling well stressed out with work. I suppose at the end of the day it all comes down to me. Am always in a bad place this time of year and this year is no exception. But am not gambling so that's got to be a good thing.

Am off today... thank goodness! I would like to have had a lie in but my body clock doesn't allow it... even though I ran a steady half-marathon last night just because I felt like it in the moment. Better to run than to gamble.

Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Hey SA,

Too right!!! Better to run, moan, spit, swear....you name it - but NOT gamble!!

That's the spirit, keep it up 🙂

Have some well deserved rest SA...calm ur mind and body down after stressful week

Take care

Sandra x

Day 390 continues....

It crosses my mind of the capacity of the human mind, body and soul to "recover" to "recover" from trauma, be it the little day to day trauma's or the major life changing trauma's. By trauma I mean it in all senses...physically, emotionally and psychologically.

I think day to day life is like a constant process of rejuvenation. Just when you think you've had enough, you recover to take on the challenges of a new day.

Today is a good day. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Day 390 comes to a close...

O well so much for having an evening out. Mate cancelled. But me being me I was fine with that. Socialising takes it out of me. Thought about a swim and sauna but didn't do that either. Iv'e spent much of the day eating. My body replenishing its stocks after yesterdays long run.

Am feeling a bit flat now, but happy to have got through another day without gambling. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Hey SA,

Well done gor another day g free under your belt.

I actually find myself eating more recently ( on days off ) ..must be winter thing lol.. or running in a cold? 🙂

Had a good run yesterday, just didn't help my mood...seem to drop a bit, and took about 8 hrs to recover...hey ho...life and it's surpries 🙂

Keep it up my friend and have a lovely relaxing and enjoyable weekend !! 🙂

Sandra x

Hi SA..

Funnily enough , only last week I looked up the Oxford Eng Dictionaries definition of the word recovery ..the first one was along the lines of "

" To reclaim Body, Mind and Spirit to normal health "

This second definition I guess people would associate more with legal and lost property but in the world of addiction I think this actual definition is even more fitting than the first...

" The act of gaining control or possession of something stolen or lost"

R and D xx