Hope

Day 391, with not a penny gambled in that time.

Thanks both 🙂

Not much to say at this moment in time. Am feeling relatively chilled out and relaxed. Long may it last.

Am defo going out tonight, lets see if I can enjoy myself or at least not get too stressed out.. lol

No gambling issues. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

SA

Fella thanks for popping by my thread, I am back in a good place right now, the three hours of madness taught me a great deal about myself and what I want from my life.

One thing is for sure gambling does not feature in any equation.

For us it is about

Abstain and maintain.

To which you are doing a sterling job my friend.

Enjoy that night out.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 392 gamble free.

Thanks Duncs... thing is am weak. Am drunk for first time in a long while and I would have gambled if it wasn't for the fact that the gambling hell hole was shut. That was the only reason I haven't gambled. I got lucky. Nothing else to say other than goodnight... S.A

Hey SA,

Hope you had a good night out and wish you bright day without hangover 🙂

Take care and hell hole can stay shut forever...you don't need that devil house!!

Sweet dreams ( hopefully wont be as wavy as the sea ) 🙂

S x

Day 392 continues...

Thanks Sandra... I do feel relieved that I haven't gambled, but I would have coped with the fallout if I had. Am more of a realist nowadays and in some ways am glad ive had this wake up call and to see for myself where I am at with my recovery.

In short I still can't trust myself to have a few to many and then make my own way home. The gambling monster within saw its chance and pounced but didn't reckon on the place being closed.

I have no urge to gamble now. In fact the urge to gamble vanished as soon as I saw that the place closed. No urge to go and find a casino or to go online. Just an urge to eat a burger and go home.

From what I can remember the urge to gamble was a mix of wanting to recoup money spent on expensive meal and drinks and taxi to come and a slight hormonal imbalance (if ya get my drift lol).... anyway no damage done. Onwards... S.A

Day 392 still continues...

Its just dawning on me how incredibly lucky I was last night. Its only because arcades are closing down left right and centre that I managed to avoid gambling whatever I had in my pocket plus £300 out the cash point. My gambling head was beaten by a practical barrier not of my making.

In reality I relapsed last night but without actually gambling. I played Russian roulette with recovery last night and got away with it. I remind myself of how s**t I would have felt if I'd of gambled a bunch of money away.. a bunch of money that's taken months to build up. I am a fool but I forgive myself.. a slap on the wrist but I forgive myself.

I remind myself of how stressed I get this time of year... so I need to be good to myself by not putting myself in positions where gambling becomes a possibility. Thanks for listening... S.A

Day 392 still continuing... I feel rubbish, its not about money, its about me.

P.s Thought for the day "life changing"

Thanks for the post. Think we are on same wavelength at the moment. Sorry to read about your virtual relapse. Glad the place was closed but maybe best to avoid too much drink...

Hey SA

You must have had your guardian angel watching over you last night SA..and thankfully the place was shut..

I know that you would have been back on track again anyway even if the worst had happened as you are very philosophical about it in a good way...progress not perfection ...but hey!!!! You didn't !!! so ...nothing to see here...move along...

R and D xx

Ps ..I am intrigued as to the "hormonal imbalance " btw...so far my tawdry mind has come up with 4 possibilities..;-)

No need to reply ...heh heh heh

Hey SA

I experienced a similar escape from gambling myself not that long ago. It felt scary that all the effort and work I put in could be undone by a few minutes of madness. From that point I put some online blocks in place, even though I know a way around them I know it can give me at least 10-15 mins and that can be long enough to clear my head. How ever we disbelieve how easy we can get in the state of wanting to gamble again we can also get out of it if we gift ourselves those few minutes.

It was over-confidence on my part, told me not to be so c**k sure. Not saying you are like that, feel like you have been on the rollercoaster longer than anyone here on the forum. I guess we can only try and learn from these things. At the end of it all you are still gamble free, regardless of the could of's or maybes. Thats something not to be taken lightly.

Rob

Day 393 gambling free and I appreciate your thoughts folks and yes despite my weekend shinanigans I am still gambling free.

A good day today. Work, cinema, swimming. Am back on an even keel ever so quickly. My name is Walter Mitty lol (watch the film).

No gambling problems. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Hi SA 🙂

I am so glad things getting back on even keel, since ur not as lovely night out on Saturday. I am afraid it can turn nasty very quickly and especially this time of the year we need to keep our guard up even higher to prevent those sneaky heads poking their noses in our business.( lol..made myself laugh describing urges haha )

You doing well 🙂

Enjoy the rest of the week and soon be w/end and festive day. Relax, stay calm and g free 🙂

Sandra x

Hey SA,

Just checking in 🙂

Not used to not seeing your posts popping up 🙂

Hope all is good and you are navigating through your week with no bumps or stress attached 🙂

Take care

Sandra x

Day 396 gamble free.

Hey thanks Sandra for checking up on me 🙂 Even I suffer from writing fatigue every now and again. Iv'e also been busy with work and exmas shopping and thinking about exmas shopping and cycling here there and everywhere in the wind and rain. Am tired but in reasonably ok form especially considering the time of year.

Thank fully I haven't had any gambling urges since last Saturday night, so all is good on that front. Not much else to say at this moment in time, so thanks for listening, until the next time... S.A 🙂

Hey SA,

Thank you for the post. Jeez to bike in this weather? I froze my hands and face off today while running..a bit arctic wind from the sea today lol

I start panicking about presents recently. Usually with couple of days to go i start crazy shopping with adding presents on lol..started with two for my nephew...am on 5 now and one more in my mind.spoiling little boy, but that's what aunties are for 🙂

Thanx for listening lol..

No gambling - keep it up SA.

Well done

S x