I am stronger than I thought!

Hi Char,

Don't worry bout the not posting much...I tend to go through phases.

You're doing great.

Sue xx

hey there lovely charlotte

doc weatherman

LOL Hell down days are just part of life and always gonna be there. Congrats on them days.

Hey Char

We all have up days as well as down days its the way we deal with them that determines how far we have come on this journey.

Im sure in the past down days were a great excuse to escape into a world of gambling but the fact you choose to face them head on now just goes to show how far you have come.

4 weeks tomorrow the time is flying by.

Your doing fantastic and should be really proud of your achievements your doing amazingly well.

Have a nice relaxing night and will catch up with you soon.

Best wishes

Andrew xx

Hi Charlotte,

What fantastic self-awareness you have. It is brilliant that you have recently recognised feelings that often signal a slip. You can much better protect yourself, and keep safe when you are aware of yourself and your triggers.

You don't need a reason to feel down Char, sometimes there is no reason and it's just part of the human condition. I know this is supposed to be a time of year when we are most susceptible to feeling low. They dubbed Monday "blue Monday" as it is apparently statistically the most depressing day of the year! All the bills from Christmas start hitting the doormat, and we are forced to pay for our sins! lol.

Doesn't matter if you don't post much, if that is what feels right for you. As long as it isn't a sign of bottling things up, there's no harm.

Take care,

f x

hey lovely charlotte

doc weatherman

Thanks Charlotte

Just found out I messed up on something that was important to me and know I am over reacting but can't seem to help it at the moment. I guess main thing is i didn't hide my feelings inside a spending spree.

You are doing brill and from reading your diary will understand the bad days I am sure and how they affect us so thanks again.

xxx

Thanks all xx

I caught up on some diaries 2nite... I have been 2 busy 2 properly catch up 4 a while... I enjoyed reading everyones progress 🙂

I have had a few tough days this last wk, but I am facing them head on.. it's sooo tough facing my past and dealing with it tbh... but with all my strength and determination, I am fighting 2 not escape 2 a world of gambling... So far I am doing gr8 2moro I am 4 wks gamble free..I am proud of myself!

Everytime I get in from work Maddison is all smiles she puts her arms out 4 me 2 pick her up and we have lots of cuddles... This is enough 2 keep me strong and determined 🙂

I hope everyone is ok xx

Thanks for the support char you are a diamond. Sometimes the hardest thing is dealing with the problems that start to bubble upto the surface once the cloud and fog of gambling starts to clear. Takes courage to face and take them on. Take care xx

hi char

doc weatherman

hey charl

just a flyer...sun goes up..sun goes down....sometimes we can have a pig of a day and then the next day it passes...

Things seem to be on an even keel with most folks on here and thats great despite january being a hard month financially...

You have your priorities right with Maddison and that makes it all worth while...

keep possting and dont worry if youve not much to say on your diary...id like to say the same goes for me but errrr that hasnt happened yet...lol..

I musta been keeping soooo much in over the years and pandoras box has been well and truly opened...lol

R and D xxx

hey char

doc weatherman

Hi Char

Hope things are still going good and well on the way to week 5. You are a determined wee cookie- a great pal and smashing mum.

Like you, I've found this journey so hard at times- but hey we're getting there 🙂

Take care

Irene

x

Thanks all xx

I have not logged on here 4 a while.... I have had 2make a lot of tough painful decisions with regards to my past relationship with my ex and I have had to walk away 4 good from someone that I once cared so much 4 , I have had 2 completely cut all contact with him and it has been really painful! This last wk has really been awful 🙁 Torn between my heart and my head!

I don't normally like writing stuff about my personal life on my diary nemore... out of fear of being attacked 4 no reason!

But I have 2 face my fears with honesty... I have been gambling out of control 4 the last 2 days, I am gutted... I have been attending counselling 4 a few wks and it is really, really painful.. But I am sticking with it.. I want 2 be able 2 stay gamble free.. But rite now I am feeling lost and unsure of how I can stay stoped.. I already put all my strength and determination in2 this journey.... So I do think sometimes that maybe I really am beat by this, maybe this is the 1 thing I will have 2 admit defeat 2!

Ne way just wanted 2 post an update!

I hope everyone is ok xx

Hey Char,

Iv not been on here for a very long time but for some reason it won't let me email you.

Please done give in I know it's hard but please find the strength to pick yourself up and go again you can do this just takes time.

I know you was having trouble with your ex and hopefully now you will be able to move on with things.

Hope your ok send me a message

Shaun 😉 x