I'm back

Welcome back Paul I've missed I'm going to admit I've missed your presence, everyone has a guilty pleasure? You're mine hope you're keeping well

Deano

Hello Deano,

I hope you are keeping well. I just hope Gamcare let me stay.

I am on here for the right reasons. Sadly my state of mind is quite grim at the minute.

Hopefully with time things will improve.

Good to see you Deano i used to read your diary too. Let's bring back happier times at the pond.

Toad.

Hey Toad...I'm being selfish here...it's great to have you back..you're posts always brightened up my day..

Toad,

Welcome back. Always a pleasure but never a chore!!!!!!!.

Time to stay away from the turfs

Bal

Good morning To you, pleased to see you back. Hope you can get where you need to be, WCID x

Anyway toad. ...you know what you got to do...get those barriers so high this time....so high that even you can't hop over them...
I respect you for keeping on trying...

Hi Deano,Loxie,Bal and WCID.

You know your comments really cheered me up.

Mothers day i lost ВЈ1200 at a local casino and £2260 on my mobile playing roulette in an empty carpark in my car. Sad i know.

I managed to get a refund from the online casino as i'd self excluded and they let me back on.

The whole ordeal left me shattered by the pond. I'd fell off my lily pad. In the panic i asked my parents for a loan of £3.5k.

Thankfully i had some savings and my wife helped.

This gambling really is progressive in it's destructive nature.

I will beat this and i am very determined this time.

Life is short and i am coming 42 in 2 weeks.

I've never felt so sad. The creatures by the pond seem down too. They see a once happy and confident toad transforming into a sad and unconfident shadow of himself. Hating his own membrane at times. Toads head is down but it will lift up again. Breathe deep and open them lungs again. I want to sing with the birds and creatures at the pond.

Good luck to you all.

Toad.

Morning Toad. I feel a bit like Pandora this morning but I think we all (well, most of us) miss you and your sparkling wit. Hoping you manage to stay safe on the waters edge today.

Hi Toad....I don't know you (before my time) but I've come across you while reading old diaries...

It's never to late to take a deep breath into those lungs and and sing your heart out....We're listening!

Keep that head up...Take care

Mari x

Good morning Toad,

I am sure in whatever circumstance that you left Gamcare in (before my arrivial), Gamcare is for everyone, so am sure your arrival will be celebrated throughtout the Gamcare land. You need to make some changes, but I expect you know that already. Nice to meet you.

Julie x

Hi Julie, Sillycow and Twinklyr,

I really appreciate your comments. I feel when i was last here my situation was not as bad. I was gambling but on the fobt roulette my stakes have been going up.

Although i used alot of humour i feel like today things have got a little more serious.

Having said that. What is life without a wee laugh. Even with gambling.

It really is a deadly enemy. I am totally sick of gambling. Been gambling for 15 years. Surely that's enough.

Please don't make the mistakes toad has made. If i can help someone on here i will be happy.

In fact i hill hop hop hop all day long at the pond.

Toad.

Morning All,

I am so tired this morning. Too many 6am starts.

Anyway just had a nice raisin and cinnamon bagel with peanut butter washed down with coffee. Was delicious.

Anyway. Today I won't gamble. I am trying to save £750.00 that is my goal.

I am still quite subdued at the pond but i am gradually getting there.

I just hear the wife up.

She had a double hip replacement 3rd February this year and is recovering.

We had to go private so thankfully she managed our money last few years or we would be skint.

Anyway hope everyone has a good day.

Toad.

Morning toad. ..glad to hear your feeling a tiny bit brighter...
Look after that lovely wife of yours....shame old Alan's not around..Mrs toad and him could compare hip notes...anyway...nice to have you back...stay safe in that lovely pond of yours...you know what you got to do to Get back on track....look forward to hearing about your progress. ..enjoy the sunshine 🙂

Morning Toad!

I love bagels but yuk to the peanut butter 🙂

Take care of yourself and Mrs Toad....The sun is to shine later so polish your lilypads, sit proud and strong...Just for today.

Wishing you well.

Mari x