It got worse before it got better

Will switch my counter off....as I have lost my fight for 2017 already. I haven't quite given up...but I have have stumbled once more. Payday looming on sat...I am scared of myself. Apologies to those that read my diary and wish me strength....because clearly I haven't been soaking it up. However I will continue with my diary as I want so bad to beat this. Don't think I can do this by myself anymore. What I do know is that I want to stop...only thing that seems to help is to take all physical cash out of my bank. Sorry to ramble. Btw my friend replied ...it turns out I owe her less than she originally thought, and most of all she's still my friend x

Counter switched off x

Am I being dumb...how do I get into chat room on my iPhone. Megastressed

Hi lady h sorry to see you have stumbled. Hat's off for jumping straight back in though.

Regarding the above post
Have you thought about getting a cash only bank card?
They still have all the benefits of a regular bank card. You just can't shop online with them.
Maybe worth a look?

Best wishes

Hi lady sorry you didn't get back to chat. You can do this hon...could your other half help you manage your access to money? Can you put blocks on your computer/ phone so you cannot access sites? Did Deano mention that a bank did a cash only card, that you cannot use online, so you wouldn't be able to make deposits? Get your head back into a good place, and start again...you know it makes sense....you know it makes life better.

Tomorrow is a new day Ladyh, a new chance to be free, please don't give up, we're human...We fall.

Start again.... Just for one day.

M x

Morning Lady H! Hope you're feeling OK today; today is another day. As you say you've got a payday coming up and you need to be extra strong. Block all gaming websites, there's free software and if you phone Gamcare they'll guide you.

Self exclude yourself from the bingo; you can phone the club, ask to speak to the manager and he or she will discreetly guide you through the process.

If you put the groundwork in now, including restricting access to money as Dean0 and Rhoda suggest, you will feel better resolved come the 23rd.

Pay your friend back as much as you can this month - and do it straight away - you'll feel good because it means you haven't wasted it before you've paid her. You'll feel better, your friend will feel better (and reassured by the respect you are showing her), and you can take it from here. Why don't you pay a third of what you owe your friend on your payday as a goodwill gesture, then the remaining two thirds over the next two months.

Keep strong; and your challenge, given its your payday in a few days, really starts NOW.

Hello, don't be so hard on yourself, it's still early in 2017 and you are honest enough to own up to it, but as previous posts state you have to put those blocks up for periods of weakness and we all have them. Great news on the friends front, the debts will come down if you don't gamble, you deserve a better life so come on, you know what you have to do, punch that mr g spark out, he's evil, bucket of strength not enough, so sending a bath full x

I'm in such a sticky situation it's not good. I know for definite I cannot do this alone. It's my birthday on Thursday and I cannot and will not let my partner take me out shopping for the day with what I have done. I plan to tell him all tomorrow...I hope he loves me as much as I love him and he will help me. The mental stress of it all is killing me....

Hi, belated happy birthday and I hope all went ok with your partner, keep fighting x

It's out in the open (wee the important ones know).I have serious support. I have stepchange on the case. Counselling session booked. Will update in more detail when I can. One last bill to sort x

Still GF!! Still don't want to talk about it yet. Just wishing these days will start racking up!! Keep fighting gamcarers!! X

You are getting there 1 more day and that two weeks in the bag

Well done

Malc

Just wld like to say...sorry if I haven't posted on peeps diary lately. I have been in the background following you!! Bare with me.

Thankyou Malc!! Just a shame it's not more x

Keep pushing on lady...it doesn't matter if your not posting on others diaries....your here...that's what matters.....I know in the early days ....the days seem to drag....but slowly hun they soon mount up....as your head clears and you settle into your new way of life....it all becomes easier....this time last year I was in your shoes. ...and feeling like you are now.....
You really will get stronger as time goes on...I can remember going to bed each night and saying. ..thank god. ...that's another day I've stayed away from those online slots...now ...the only time I think about them is when I'm on here...and then it's not in an urge way. ....just in reference when posting....soooo. ....keep on keeping on x