iHello,
This is my day 1. I am finally admitting that I have a problem. I have come the closest I have ever been to losing everything that is good in my life and I can't do it anymore. My partner can't even look at me right now. He can't hate me as much as I hate myself. I just want him to look at me they way he used to but I know it's all my fault.
I am sinking in debt and it takes all the motivation I have left just to get up in the mornings. I thought I had it under control. I thought I was stronger. I'm not but I need to be. I have three beautiful children that completely love me and I am letting them down constantly. They are so innocent and it breaks my heart knowing what I am doing to them. I need to make it stop. I need to stop hating myself so much that I think I don't deserve anyone or any love. People on the outside think I have a perfect life. If only they knew 🙁
Hi Amy.
I hope today is the start of a new chapter for you and you can start shifting the debt. I am in a similar position (however no kids) and have taken a consolidation loan to clear mine and reduced my credit limits. Get yourself a plan, with an end goal, thats what i started on the 2nd. we can do this!
My heart goes out to you Amy , it is such a terrible illness . I wish you every success in your recovery and happier days ahead for you and your family . Whats done is done , the rest of your life starts now . Life may not be a bed of roses and during the times we feel depressed and ashamed everything looks bleak and hopeless . However , giving in to our gambling addiction makes it so much worse ...... stephen
Welcome Amy....
You're in the best possible place to start your recovery. You're not alone. There are many others like yourself battling this addiction, me included.
Take inspiration from others on here and keep updating us with your diary.
You can do this! x
Hi I've just joined so just getting to grips with the site, basically I've lost all my savings in one session last night and cleared my bank account. I feel sick to the stomach of letting it get this far, basically lost 10 grand last night and I'm a secret gambler so no-one to turn to really
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