My 1st diary

I've left a post in your other thread love...
Welcome to the journey of recovery.....you will get out ...what you put in...good luck x

Hi All Day 2 of my diary (Shame the spam is spoling the page)

Havent gambled since 19th of this month, but havent had any money since today where my mum gave me £5 to get some lunch at work, as she passed it me she says I hope you dont spend this on anything else, I can see this is going to be a long long hard road to not only get over this but gain some trust back but I will get through this.

Woke up this morning as usual last mintute ( I love my sleep) but this is going have to change I need to start waking up early getting breakfeast and get a more health fresh mind to help beat this illness. I will be ringing GamCare tonight for the first time . Not going to lie a bit nervous but I am confident that I WILL do this.

Feel good today dont want to gamble anymore this illness has caused to much pain and I will get through this. with the help. so yeah not really got much more to say at this moment in time apart from I am on day 5 of gamble free and day 5 on to a better life and road to recovery.

Thank You

Hi All entry number 3 in my diary

Had a chilled out weekend this week didnt do much just relaxed not really had the urge to gamble as of yet like I said still no money to do this anyway but the games day 8 gamble free, yesterday was a bit down as others around me on social media where all going out for mothers day I just about scrapped the coppers together for a card but never the less Mum is supportive of this and understood. Still personally I would of loved to do something.

Spoke to GamCare on Friday after work who was great refered me to counciling who I intend on calling back today to arrange which is fantastic for the over come this illness. Will also be speaking the Stepforchange today to sort out the finicial mess I am but all in all I feel upbeat.

Walked to work this morning its a lovely day out there today dont need the burden on having a car at this stage and the close proximity to work I live in is fine

So thats about it really day 8 gamble free and never intend on going back I no the proof is in the pudding and its hard to do than just say but I will do this

Thank you

Hi entry number 4

Like to keep updating this as much as possible because I believe its helping me with over coming this. day 9 gamble free, feel good at the moment walking to work as I have gave up my car and loving the walk (weather isnt to bad at the moment)

Spoke to Stepforchange last night who are fantastic help me out alot in regards to the debts I am in and they will be helping me moving forward. tried to orgainse couselling but couldnt get through to them yesterday which was dissapointing.

All in all, my mind set is more postive moving forward and I will be treating this illness more as a challenge than the illness this is.

I hope everyone else is doing well regarding there recovery. The forum has a great community and I will be remaining here updating my diary on a regular basis and also helping people out as much as I can.

Like I said above all the best in the recovery and we WILL all beat this ilnness together

Hi all,

Things seem to be going well as can be at the moment in my life, I am really up for the fight and the change in my life. Loving my walks to work at the moment gets my head clear and lets me get out there and actually breathe some fresh air. I was really stuck in a rut I would drive to work then come home just lay in bed this wasnt a healthy life but I am changing this.

Spoke to my bank yesterday in regards some finicial stuff as advertised by Stepforchange. I havent really had the urge to gamble which is great so now I am day 10 gamble 3 the real test is when I get money but I have had my account other so should be near on impossible to access this which I dont intend on doing anyway

So moving forward as stated above I am deterimend to come over this illness and I am look onwards and upwards as well. all the best to everyone starting and going through there recovery.

Hi Again,

Things still going well havent gambled now for 11 days road to recover is well and truly under way. Will be piece of mind once my finicial situation is 100% sorted but hopefully that will be all done within due course.

Getting out getting some fresh air does you the world of good feeling fresh minded at the moment. payday tomorrow but that money will handled by someone else while I am on the road to recovery.

Hope others are doing well in there recovery and I wish you all the best in the hard work you are undertaking trying to battle this illness.

Day 12 gamble free,

things still looking good and this was one of the most important days in my eyes as well, I got paid this morning!!! transfered all the money tho into my mums account there was a slot where I could of gambled but didnt nor did I have the urge which feels great to me.

I really do feel like I am making huge steps over coming this illness and with the help of family and friends around me its really helping. normal stroll to work this morning listening to my music which feels great.

I hope everyone else is doing good in there recovery and I wish you all the best.

Day 15 gamble free,

All is going well at the moment mindset is fantastic slowley sorting out things in regards to my finicial.

But with the help of the forum and other people around me I do truly think I am making moves forward which makes me feel great

once again thank you all for the help you have gave me

Doing great mikey. ...15 days is fantastic ..keep plodding on. One day at a time...hope you've got the same lovely sunshine were you are...take care

Loxxie wrote: Doing great mikey. ...15 days is fantastic ..keep plodding on. One day at a time...hope you've got the same lovely sunshine were you are...take care

Hi Loxxie, things going as well as can be at the moment. Sun is out here as well bit chilly in the shade still tho but when in the sun its lovely.

Hi all day 16 gamble free,

Got my letters from Step change yesterday who will be helping me with my finicial issues which is fantastic on that side and a plan will be in place to get rid of these debts.

Gambling wise again not really having the urges to gamble still watching the sports I love and enjoying, handed the money side of things over to a family member to look after. my mind set is feeling alot better.

One bad thing to report tho I have started having the odd cig here and there again which needs to stop as I did this earlier last year all from will power which shows this can all be done.

I hope everyone else is on the road to recovery and good luck to you all.

Glad to hear fiances are getting sorted ...that takes off a huge burden once there under control and being dealt with...as for the ciggies. ...obviously we all know the health implications....let alone the cost... (yes..I'm a smoker )
And while I would never encourage you to take it up again...what I will say is...don't try to much at once...your doing great in your early days here mikey. ....and if one /two smokes a day really helps....then so be it...you know the risks of addictions creeping up...just be aware. ....take care

Hi all,

Day 22 gamble free, things still are on the up not gambled at all not really had to many urges feel like everything is turning around and my mind set seems in a better place in regards to all aspects of life

I hope everyone else is doing well in the recovery and keep up the hard work.

Hi Mikey.

Just wanted to say well done and keep striding ahead. You will most definitely continue to see the benefits!

Take care and be kind to yourself.

Our Lady