My Diary of Shame

Hi Mrs D, thanks for the kick Tri...

A couple of updates due, the 1st one being all 3 items sold (@ the auction) & sometime in the next few weeks, I will be receiving a cheque for 40 odd quid, probably about as much as they paid for the items back in the day! But hey, they are paying me which is an improvement on where I thought I would be! The oil lamp & the posy dish were gross but I really hope the figurines find their way into a display somewhere!

Secondly, I did indeed manage to part with some cash, (no-where near as much as if I were gambling) as intended & the purchased items met with disapproving stares from the NM as to be expected. Lovely, you can't beat comfort 😉

I have this week discovered that money is not the reason I gambled, for I have some now & the old thoughts did indeed pop into my head this week..."Go on, you can afford it!" Says it all really don't it? Gambling is no longer about what I could win, it's about an action that results in defeat! Why would I entertain this? Why did I entertain it for so bleeding long - Grrrr! As you can see, I am still rather angry, & Mr Gamble remains my arch enemy! I hear his lies & I laugh @ them & then document them so that other people can learn as I have (thank you again to everyone who has guided me & marches with me along this path) but I don't care for them anymore & I treat them with the contempt they deserve!

Had some tears today as struggling with tiredness & NM not quite grasping the importance of my recovery & that my cyber friends won't encourage me back to gambling. Probably not helped by the constant reminder that this is a lifetime commitment (for both of us) but it's one I am fully signed up to! I'm no stranger to being in a 3% bracket because that's how many people in the country did A levels back in my day...I intend to make a much better show of myself next time I find myself in that position!

Onwards & upwards fellow soldiers - ODAAT

Odaat

Great post, I emulate greatly with much of it.

Just keep addiction where you can see it, standing in the eye of the storm means that you won't get stabbed in the back.

As we both know monsieur gamble

Could slip under a snake wearing a top hat!!!!!!!!!

Keep making the right choice.

Life.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Juuuuuuuune,

Thanks for your recent post on my diary.

Just reiterating my support for you today treacle!

Keep strong

Ade

Onwards and upwards indeed! Keep it up and keep posting

Hi you! It's not very nice to call clown after me :-0
..but let ya off as long as it's for the good deed 😀

Thanks for your support and patience. This character is gonna try again....phew...

You keep up good work and keep winning Juuunnneeeee.

Ps. My funny tread (thread) been forgotten 🙁 how could you let this happen bright superstar 😀

Later and behave

Hi ODAAT
Great post and I love the auctions for selling but have little of worth left to sell.
Keep strong and be kind to yourself
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Hey ODAAT thanks for the post on my diary your always there when I need you I appreciate that so much. Anyways problem has been diagnosed as alternator so hope a couple of hundred quid will solve the matter.

Thanks June for your support and advice it is much appreciated. and bucked me up.

Had a few voddies last night and was asleep by 9 Ohh HDs indeed.

Feel better this morning, can't change what's not mine to change so it's no good dwelling on it, but even though I was low and upset I had no thoughts to gamble at all, so that was positive HD.

Keep strong keep marching forwards and upwards and keep winning, by saying NO to Mr Gamble.

Thanks for being there.

Suzanne xxx

Hi ODAAT
Thanks for your post on my diary. My baby does understand and thankfully she is not desperate at present as ?Uni in the Autumn so she will have a kick start for that.
Take care
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Thanks ODAAT your last message made me chuckle 1 liner made my day. Thanks for all your support.

Hi ODAAT

thanks so much for your very kind words and for enticing me out from under that rock....I have been checking in everyday to the forum (i have to cause you guys keep me winning) the dust has now settled in the Ginger household, mrs Ginge says she never went looking, just borrowed my I pad when i was showering and it was on the GamCare page so curiosity very nearly killed the cat...and thanks Junie i did notice your..onwards and upwards..a very sweet gesture and i am pleased to report I've been traveling in that direction since my absence from the forum.

mrs Ginge working till 5 tonight..then it's off to the south coast with all the family till Monday..( so it's skate and chips tonight as gingers going to the seaside lol)

thanks for being there Juuuune have a great easter and keep traveling.... onwards and upwards ... your friend Ginger.

Morning Junnie ,

Just popping in to say Happy Easter and have a lovely gambling free day.

Suzanne xxx

Ohh blondie indeed Junnnie, HD.

It's taking long enough as it is to get to that 3% without losing a day Ohh hard work and HD indeed.

Can't help but worry and miss my golf balls, they just ain't bouncing this weekend, but on a good note have not found the need to clean windows yet lol, ohhh HD.

Chilling in the garden OH has not even done lawns ohhh, you can guess what he is doing, yes flying to the Bahamas, at least it sure turns out nice there lol. Doggie had her walk dinner on and films loaded ready to watch, one is the gambler, ( he did that especially for me HD. But he is happy and that is all that matters today, windows and lawns can wait til tomorrow.

Can't remember last Easter but this one I will always remember because A it's too quiet and B I have never I known Easter eggs to still be in the fridge by Sunday afternoon, Ohh lala.

Hope your life is still improving by the day, and you are not getting stressed over up and coming wedding.

Only one thing to say to Mr Gamble (from hell) for today get lost, get lost, get lost.

Take care my friend.

Sxxxxxxx Blondie xxxxx

Hi ODAAT, thank-you for posting on my new members page, wise words and great support, which i really value. I need it right now. Thanks - Paul

Bobbing and weaving my friend, bobbing and weaving ☺

Maybe time for a sand angel also (i mean when sun comes up lol)..still searching for that sunrise which has always been in front of me if i just choose to open my eyes...live and learn eh..

Have a good and safe day! Keep winning ODAAT