My Diary of Shame

Your big day has arrived, :))))

Have a lovely day, sending you my warmest of best wishes.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for dropping by....I didn't expect it as yes, "you're a bit busy at the mo"...bit of an understatement 🙂 🙂

I'm doing ok.Back on the wagon and glad to be aboard. Hope things are good with you Mrs!!

LifeBegins x

hope all good with you. Keep strong and thanks for the support

Thanks for ur support Sesuo...never change & just breathe now :-0

Xx

..deal with it or tk me down 😛

Keep being ya gal, tk it all on ur stride - ya know who looks up to ya :-/

Always proud 😉

S x

Right Mrs D & all you lovely Gamcarers, time for an update...

It's 2058 & my 6th night as a wife (snigger) is well underway! We're out in Lanza-not-as-grotty as I remember it & unless you count 2 lots of half hour exercise & a massage as 4 days well spent we have done nothing but eat & sleep since we got here. The factor 30 is doing my ginger skin proud & the beached whale that is the NM is slowly coming round to my way of thinking since the jelly belly hasn't seen the sun since childhood!

There appears to be no scope for gambling within the hotel (although admittedly, there is free WiFi but this wasn't my poison) & I don't recall seeing anything but boats & restaurants in Puerto Calero which is refreshing to say the least 🙂

I still can't quite believe how much better life is in recovery, even the down days, & even though my relationship with money is still unstable, I'm making progress - ODAAT

Bah, just read loads more posts of people relapsing & leaving doors open...WHY?!? How many diaries have you read from people saying they are cured, back gambling again only this time they're in control & winning...None, that's how many! Get real people, recovery won't come to you...Get barriers up, get help (GA, Gamcare, counselling, anything that is out there), tell loved ones (ensure they know there is help out there for them too) & accept their support!

There is no cure guys, for us compulsive gamblers, living in harmony with our addictions is as good as it gets...We have to choose 'no' like it's an allergy, there are no guns @ our heads!

I know I have a very long journey ahead but if I can do it after an extremely unsuccessful gambling career spanning the best part of 3 decades, anyone can - ODAAT

Odaat

My dear friend I would like that printed on a t-shirt.

Or maybe made up as a business card which I could discuss freely with all the winners I often endure!

But the thing is that was you or I was it not?

We have walked in those shoes, worn holes in the bottom of them.

Keep on keeping on my friend, because from it other recoveries will be born

We are testament to that.

I am honoured to stand by your side.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hello odaat!

Your diary and thoughts you echo make the hairs on my neck stand up and bring me back to reality. Such a strong character you are.

Reading your posts keeps me going massively.

Thanks for your support.

Congratulations Mrs NM brilliant to see you doing so well enjoying life so much more.

To see how much you care about total strangers on here NM is a very lucky fella enjoy the rest of your honeymoon you deserve everything your new life gives you.

Happy memories i guess :-)))))

Can't beat this dance and don't say ya didn't enjoy it! 😛

What are lil Sesuo's for if not taking the P'''' from big ones 🙂

Keep on winning girl! ODAAT indeed!

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Hello ADAAT

Thanks for posting on my diary. You are right about putting barriers up.

I had savings of 1k recently and without barriers I blew the lot. I then went into my overdraft by £500.

It saddened me as i was debt free after 12 years and actually had savings.

I am due 1k next year so i will clear my overdraft. But I am in a better place financially but i find the temptation to gamble is also greater.

Good luck Addat in your continued recovery.

Toad

Thanks for your supportive message MRS Junnieee lol,

I am sooo very pleased that you are embracing recovery and enjoying the rewards,it has bought you, A new married lady, and a lovely honeymoon in Lanzagrottie :))), it's a lovely island, with white sands and calm warm seas,

Lovely positive and inspiring last post, you sure have turned your life around after years of being in the grip with Mr G.:)))

Take care and enjoy.

Suzanne xxx

Hey Mrs!

Sounds like you're having a great time on honeymoon with the old man 🙂 All that sun and relaxation sounds like heaven.

Thanks for popping onto my diary. I'm doing ok. Back towing the line! Catch up soon.

LifeBegins x

Hi Odaat,

Just popping in to say thanks for posting in my diary. I'm using your words as inspiration and it was the good boot up the **** that I needed. Hope all is well with you.

Hi ODATT , Just popping bye to thank you for your comment earlier .

Whenever I pick up on one of your posts , or comments youv'e made on another's diary it makes me smile ! Never unfair nor untrue , you say it like it is and I find that very refreshing and inspiring and thats just as it should be .

I believe congratulations are in order ? . A bit late I'm sorry but I do tend to get a bit wrapped up in my own world at times .

Enjoy your honeymoon , my sincerest best wishes to you both and as for the forum ? Just keep doing what you do best !!

Alan xxx