My Diary of Shame

Not the news I wanted to read.

You're not selling this counselling malarkey to me.

There's a Swedish proverb: "The best place to find a helping hand is at the end of your own arm."

Having help and support is great (that is presumably why we're all here) but you can't solve people's problems for them.

If you think counselling can help you and the problem was the counsellor - try another counsellor.

Just keep trying until something works for you.

I would be delighted if the app helps you. It looks good.

Be careful if you use scented candles to create a relaxing ambience. New research suggests they might put dangerous levels of a cancer-causing chemical in the air. Incense sticks have been compared to passive smoking. I'm not one to believe everything that I read but think the reasoning behind these two makes sense.

I don't struggle to sleep very often; whenever I do I put talk radio on quietly in the background. It always works for me. I either fall asleep quickly or become an overnight expert on Donald Trump's foreign policy. At worst, I learn something.

Someone was telling me a couple of weeks ago that they need white noise to sleep.

Something will help you.

Keep trying, keep looking.

Brightest blessings

Glint

Hello Honeybunch ! Not sure where that came from but hey ho ! Just poped by to say I'm thinking of ya ! And hope your feeling a little better today ? Take care Kelly Pop's x

Hi Kelly , just stopped off to say Hi and that were all missing you being around , hope your ok and speak to you when your back !

Take care PoPs x

Sorry ! Sleepy head just posted to you on his own diary ! Durgh !

Hello youngen! Glad your back in Gamland ! Oh that's like the song Gamland style ! LOL ! Still chuckling !!!

Aha Sesuo!!!

Hiding on page 3...nahhhh...not gonna have your way! Keep talking and enlighen mrs diary on ur journey ahead ☺

Tipu tapu

As a selfish addict, I've missed your robust dry humour just lately. We can't leave it all to Alan, he's got enough on his plate.

s***t im still guilting

ODAAT, I have a giggle just when I see you have posted on my diary, then it becomes a belly laugh when I read your post.

Good on you and I trust all is well in your world..

So the side effects have diminished & I'm largely floating around on a marshmallow cloud, smiling down @ the world, of late. It was a candy floss one originally but I ate it! The happy pills have banished Tiny Tears but don't appear to be helping any with my sleep yet causing very vivid & memorable dreams. I seem to have figured out how to 'pull things' out of my head though. It's kinda like nodding off with a void between my brain cell & the top of my noggin...Almost want to prod it to see if it is squidgy! Last night I chucked in a vision of one of the In-Laws dogs racing round on the beach with his ears flapped back & a huge grin on his face (freedom). I have no idea if I'm actually getting any more sleep but it seems to help me get off to my amazing technicolored dreamland & as my amazing Sesuo has always told me tipu tapu!

Glad to read the break did you good and you're feeling better.

Pleased you liked the app. The thought I helped gave me a boost this week.

Your posts have a habit of giving me a boost when I'm feeling down.

Really appreciate the post. You have been understandably quiet, was good to hear from you.

Counselling I'm really not sure I need. Always best to try things out for myself though. Don't worry about putting me off. Liked to read an honest assessment of your experience.

Yeah, not sure about the white noise. Works well for some, thought it was worth a mention.

Looking forward to and wishing your next post to be a positive one.

Good to hear from you.

Was looking at your profile yesterday morning to check when you last posted. You have been very quiet lately. Never know if that's a good thing.

Thank you very much for your kind support. If only printing was the problem. Didn't want to drone on about the problems I've had applying for jobs on your diary. I'll put it on my thread tomorrow - it'll be very dreary - if nothing else it might help you with your sleep.

How are you?

KIT ODAAT.

Morning Kelly and thanks for the support , I really appreciate it .

I Honestly don't know what people want sometimes , I don't want nor think that I come across that way but to some maybe I do but I honestly believe some put too many things between themselves and recovery instead of just concentrating on the reason there here . Maybe I've got too older an outlook on things and I'm not focused on the how's and why's of my problem enough for some , I really don't know anymore ?.

Anyway It's about my recovery and your recovery and anybody else that truly wants to stop gambling , so s.o.d em !!.

Glad to see you back posting a bit more again and I'm assuming all's well in your world and I'll take the periods when your not on here as a good thing ?.

Take care Honey !

Love peace and best wishes to you and your's !

PoP's x

No honesty I hear? Well look away now if you're squeamish!

Hi Kelly,

Strong post from you, what I took from a post you sent to another diarist today was I don't know if this is recovery but I am gamble free and that's enough, it sure is my friend, I don't know if I have truly found recovery yet either, but I am gamble free, I think recovery is truly ongoing and has to be a work in progress at all times, and this on its own can knacker us up (tiredness) lol, I have not posted for a while, have not had the energy myself, to keep reading and repeating, but your words about being gamble free, and not sure about recovery have given me a kick up my own Jacksie so to speak lol.so thsnk you for sharing that.

Keep moving forwards even if its at a slow snail pace, and yep as you mentioned recovery is possible by Ade2,

Never give up on recovery (no matter what it is) and I will do the same.

Blondiee to you xxx

Pssssssst !, Just while nobody's around , thanks x and just for you " What you doing in yer bed on yer back , you should be dancing " I think thats the lyric's anyway ?. LOL !

Take care Kelly , one day at a time !!

PoP's