My Diary of Shame

Yo Kelly,

I also hazard a guess that you don't need this place but then again without pressure your absense is noted when your not about. Your very own personal slant on things...

Personally I think this is a good place to vent ones anger as long as it's not taking a direct aim and infringing on others diarys. I have been guilty myself in the past with that misdemeanour. But hai Ho. ..

I've always think that despite this forum can be good, but only as a added aid. The emotions run high and some/ many times it is the blind leading the blind. Something I try to be wary off, possibly the reason why some refer to my posts ad riddles.

We're all good people here, without exception, just battling through our daily dramas. But selfish in addiction as well as selfish in recovery. Something we need to keep reminding ourselves.

Now get out of the sack and dance

OMFG...I'm sat on the train, feeling sorry for myself & using some of my bank holiday time so I can go home & feel sorry for myself without colleagues having to look @ my smacked r*e & I've just been reduced to tears by a blogger!

The BullRing of Fire is literally one of the funniest things I have ever read but suddenly this courageous person's terminal cancer has taken my breath away!

Life is so unfair!

I know there have been plenty of debates about the comparisons & addiction may well be with me forever but it's not Cancer (thank f**k) so today addiction, more so than ever "You can kiss my r*e!"

Hey you ! , have no issues with tears and if that's what helps then what I say " Is let em flow " and as for the last phrase , well, I'm so glad my names not A . ddiction ? .

Look after you girl !! x

HI there special K , how you doing ? , Sorry I didnt reply sooner but just finished work and been doing so much High fiving of late my hand hurts a bit , so you got my last post of the day ( aren't you the lucky one) , well unless anyone else comes along tonight that is .

It is nice to see you back posting though , even if it is between work and bed rest ! . I'm not prying just more curious as to what the problem is with the hip ? , had a snoop at your diary and found back and osteopath but no reference to hip but I am looking through after work eyes so could easily have missed something .

Wasn't sure if it was something tempory or an old injury or maybe an over zealous wedding night as it wasn't that long ago, lol ! Just hope I haven't made a boo boo there and it is something more serious as you know what I'm like on here .

Only reason I'm saying is because I suffer with Arthritis in my hips , which is pretty painfull at times until I have my cortozone injections but they'll only do those once a year , so I try and save them up ! , my left's not to bad but my right is knacker.ed and theyve offered me a hip op ( and no thats not a form of dance ) but I really can do without 3 months off at the mo with the wedding coming up this year , need the pennies you see !. Actually I'd love 3 months off but being self employed I really can't afford it and the big 3 won';t do refunds on what I'd deposited over the years , which I thinks a bit unfair as I'd paid for at least two of there shops and half a dog track !.

Anyway enough of my late night ramblings , I'm off to watch the walking dead on box set as I could do with being cheered up before bed , apparently the living dead are called "walkers " on there , sometimes think they followed me on here judging by some people's lack of humour but I won't go there again ! .

So I'll wish you a good pain free night if thats possible , wishing you a speedy recovery and love and peace to you and yours .

PoP's x

Hi Sesuo ☺

Hi ODAAT (Kelly ),

I want to apologize if I in any way shape or form made you feel uncomfortable or like it was wrong to celebrate your gamble free days. I write sh. It in my diary and think that its private but it's not at all. People like yourself that I have come to care about could get hurt reading something that I write and that is never my true intention. I'm clumsy and mouthy at times. Please accept my apology. No hugs. 😉 and, no reply necessary. -joan

Odaat.. good on you.

My swimming is ok, my swimming in circles is a prosphetic pun.

Thanks for your post, end of era's are always sad. I think everyone knows that.

Sometimes, a melancholic state is... nice! I'm ok with it..

I'm aware im fortunate and I do embrace it....... In a fashion..

Its the music.... and guilty of thinking too much.

Your a good lady Odaat, it's admirable that you look out for others. But on the other hand, it's also alot of pressure. Make sure that your the priority....

Now, don't work to hard...

ps.... acupuncture! Just read big Al's post regarding hip/ osteopathy. Have spent fortune in my time on the modern stuff but now swear on the old stuff.. but like anything it's the luck of the draw

Rusty needles in my girlie bits ? Mmmmmh ? Q. Was he a real doctor ? Q. Are you sure he was trying to cure your hip ? Q. Wasn't it just a night on shots that ended in a back street tatoo shop ? Have you tried using a mirror to look for strange writing ?

All this talk of your lady bits is getting a bit too much to bear...nearly put me off my dinner.

My Jedi mind reader used "pins"...not on my nether regions I hasten to add...they were fab. Really made a difference

Hai Odaat,

Acupuncture.....Here's my take, there in a fashion just like councellors. Its about luck of the draw. My experience was due to my over use of a left arm and the wearing down of my joints. I went to a good ' oetopath ' for near on 2 years at £40 a week , and all it ssemed to do was move the pain/ tension about to my shoulder etc. Then as i started on a new site, there was a acunpuncture place, so thouht why not. One session and have no grief for past 2 years. But then chopped a nerve, and my next experience with a different accupunture was complete high street S****e.

As for your 2nd part of your post to me, i see that your a strong character but just a reminder to heed your advice and thats be good to you......

You told me earlier that you walked like a duck ? Could the rusty needles be the real cause , sorry I know I shouldn't but I'm crying with laughter at the mo ! Thanks for making me giggle and I hope your not in too much pain tonight x

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Hi Kelly , Just a quick drop by to say thank you tonight for making me laugh , that phrase " needles in my girlie bits " is going to stay with me for life . I really think you should consider writing a book about life as your writing on here sums it up perfectly , youv'e already got BJ's big pants so she needs to move along a bit .

I do empathise regarding your hip though as I find it quite draining and feel quite tired when I get bouts of severe pain and I get strong painkillers to cope with it so how you put up with it , well , my hat comes off to you .

Hope you feel better soon !

PoP's x

Hope you are feeling better today Junnieee :)) and those happy pills are kicking in.

Maybe you should have got a smaller mutt, cos it could be all the dog walking (with him pulling) that has triggered your hip) ohh lol.

Seriously take it easy and take care of you and yours and keep thinking positive.

Ohh and thanks for your caring concern the other day, you gave me a kick where it was needed, :))))

Blondiee xxx

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'ello June lol!