My Diary of Shame

Just a thank you...nothing special or too complicated...simple honest thank you ☺

& of course - go go go Sesuo! You are an inspiration ! Be proud and keep walking...little steps forward...we long passed racing times 😉 ....recovery is something you have to enjoy every day! Look left & right and aknowledge the moment in time.

Ooopppssss...I'm on 1000 or 1001 post...sozzz...i shall let Martin to take the pride in that 😛

Ha ! Ha ! and the first commeth running , now you know perfectly well I couldn't possibly tell the forum who it was don't cha ? and I was a liitle concerned about my post , thinking " Well knowing this lot's background's and all" ," I wonder if there gonna be starting up some sort of sweepstake on here " ? ( is sweepstake on the forbidden words list ) ?.

It was definately a hug though and nothing rude going on , so does that rule you out ? , do you ever hug ? , do you like fishmarkets and the sound of boiling lobsters ? Umh ? only questions you could answer special K :)).

I need to start a book though , 6/4 fav or 33/1 outsider who knows , I will rule out CW though because although she comes accross all "Prime of Miss Jean Brodie 'ish " and men of a certain age like that sort of thing ( cough , cough ) , I have to discount her purely for the f&f section , because being a suffering wife , she really doesn't deserve a trip to a dead fish supplier on a hot June Day ,( I'm so in for a good telling off if she read's this ) ( I hope ) , So your still in the runnin girl !!.

Sending you a Cyber mop for your incontinence ! xx

G'night Ben 🙂

Hi ODAAT just thought I would come by and say thanks for your encouragement on my diary. I'm only 24 days but have my head in the right place. I have accepted I can't gamble for fun anymore. Every other time I have tried to "give up" I knew I was going to bet again because o thought I could control it. I know now that it controls me and I will never be able to bet for fun. But it's ok I've accepted that. And your diary is fantastic. Another very inspirational person on this website

Gaz

Oi, did you have to mention my warts?!

Thank you for the millionth time for your support. I'll reply to your email properly, but you know how slow I am and my fingers are bleeding from bashing away at this keyboard all day. The tears have dried, the knickers are on (and are so big that they're keeping my chest warm) and I had to eat the cucumber as I've already gone through all the biscuits.

Will talk with my very own norvern monkey tonight and all will be well. Later alligator

xx

many thanks for your post, i do appreciate it ! x

Ok, I had to look that one up. Grotty, that is. And, yes, for a few hours there grotty it was. So glad I got sprung. Of course now I sit here and second guess the radiologist... Guh..

When you're right you're right.

😀 how's that?

Just popping in too say hi! My first time round on this site you were the first person too help me and I'm still so very grateful. I'm back with my tail between my legs after falling back too my old ways, but taken the plunge, re told my partner, and on day 2! Soglad your still here, your words were always spot on and your diary will be one of my regular visits 🙂

Thanks for popping over..
I tell my grandchildren it's nannys b*m coughing ! Lol
Take care x

w*f ?? Nanny's b*m coughing ?? FFS !

Sending more encouragements and hopes your way. All the best ODAAT. Tri x

Busy weekend plans ODAAT?

What am i up to this weekend?

Mixture of work, rest and play. I'm sure some of the time will be spent watching the football too 🙂

Morning Mrs D, on my way home more than ready to start my days off & randomly despite an urgent need to jump up & 'energise' (by powering around the office like a Duracell bunny on Speed) throughout the night, my tiredness has all but disappeared now! That's not to say that the gentle rocking motion of the 0724 won't set me back a few hours but as I cling on to a tiny bit of yellow pole, my nose 2 inches from the delights of a rush hour arm pit I know for sure that I will still be awake when I get to Euston!

I've been tired & miserable lately for various reasons, some which I can pin point & others that I can't but in any case, I'm happy to report that aside from a couple of random visits from the ex (Mr Gamble, who was kicked down the escalator & then left outside the bogs in the shopping centre), nothing too difficult to navigate @! & that is despite me having the £21k of Mum's inheritance that I borrowed & then she 'needed' & knowing full well that the £500 advance that I sent over & she took out to 'pay the boys' (friends of the family who are doing some work...In August) won't have a cat in hells chance of making it to them!

It always seemed a bit unfair that I had to give up my favourite pastime whilst she carried on regardless but not anymore...These days I feel different! Nowadays, I'm scared of complacency & distinctly remember the pain...I mean seriously, what was I thinking spending all that time in a bookies, I'm a respectable (ish) young (ish) laydee! I'm ready & waiting for the day my brain tries to side with Mr Gamble & sleep safe in the knowledge that it is me that makes the right choices now - ODAAT