My first day

Two weeks gone!Feeling so good,stress free ,at the moment I didn't had urge to play,hopefully another days will be the same.

Day 15!Still ok,gambling free.

Day 16!Decided I ll write a bit more about me,maybe is time to open and share my thoughts.I am here 10 years,half of it I ve been working and that give me to learn a bit of English ,as u can see that my posts are very messy.The rest I ve been look after my children as I had no chance to go to work.I am active person and always wonted to do somthing big in my life,people to remember me,but instead I did what I did ,looking for easy money in slots blaming for that all my situation,that I have to stay at home and I can't go to work.My past 5 years passed so quick that I can remember half of good moments,just becouse of gambling I was in stress all the time.I had so many plans but never did even one of it.Ve lost a lot of money,running after happiness.Today I know that everything what I dreamed of I already have.16 day gambling free and thanks to this side and peoples advises I am where I am.My bank card is without security number and as I played all the time online,I have no chance to deposit .Now I know that those 5 years suppos to be the best 5 years in my life.I can not go backwards but I can look in the future and do the righte desidions.My post can be boring probably for all of you but I want you to know that I m feeling good here and it's really helping me what is the most important.I wish to everyone got the power like I have now and stop gambling .

Day 17!Still ok

Hi Janulka , I just wanted to say well done on your 17 day's gamble free :)) , it's always tough at the start but it will get easier the longer you go on without gambling . I just read your post 33 and I'm glad this site is helping you , I've found it really usefull over the last year as well , It's also good that your starting feel a little better about things , as you said you can't do anything about what's happened but you can change your future for the better :)).

There's nothing wrong with your English either as your post came accross very well :))

Just take one day at a time with little steps forward and you'll be fine I'm sure .

Best wishes and I'll talk with you again soon , Alan

thank u Alan for your post,really cheer me up.

Good Janulka , I'm glad it did :))

Thats what this place is good at " Support " , were all the same and we all know what it feels like to admit that we have a Gambling addiction , It's not nice to face and it's even worse to have to face it alone .

Have a great night and take care :))

Day 18!Yesterday I was a bit down,is amazing how posts from other people can work for me.Thanks to other who gave me 5 min of they s life's to post and cheer me up.Today day like every day,but the picture of that usual day are more clear and finally I can imagine my future and go for it.Everything for myself and my familly to be happy like never before.

Afternoon Janulka , just came on to see if you felt better than you did yesterday and obviously from your last post I can see you do ! :)).

I was looking back at some of your post's and I used to be the same in thinking that I needed lots of money and material things to make my life better but now I've stopped gambling , I can see like you that I already had the important things I needed , great children and a supportive partner , moneys usefull but its not the most important thing in life .

Your doing great so just keep focused on all the good things you already have in life and how much better life will be without the constant worry over what you could lose :))

I hope you have a great weekend with your family around !

Best wishes

Alan

Hi Alan,thank u for your support.Some of the people are greedy and I think I was,chasing for the money and didn't appreciate what I have.Of course is not easy ,renting a two bed flat with 3 children but this it was becouse I did this,I could have already half of the dream house,my addiction took all those money.My target for now is to rent the house somewhere nice and buy a dog for my familly as they always wish for,but for this I have to focus on my life and to don't play any more.I didn't go for Holliday as we had no money.As you see gambling took a lot.Finally I can admit that this was only my fault.I started to blame everyone around for my addiction.But now is new me,18 days free of gambling and I m feeling good ,with your support of course.Wish u all the best. Janulka

Keep pushing, those days are racking up!! 🙂

Thanks Lady,trying my best . day19!Wow,day by day feeling more grateful.

Day 20!Going beter and beter.Realise today I am very emotional.Today was lovely day,went to the cinema with my children,watching them how happy they are make me feel wonderful.Still gamble free

Day 21!still gable free.

Well done on 3 week's gf
Keep up the good fight
Deano