Hi,
I just want to share my story and hope that it can makes me feel better or at least help someone who is in a similar situation.
I'm a young guy who's only 24 years old. I have a job working from 9-6. Everything's in my life is good at the moment and I am trying to make it better every day, only one thing is I am a gambling addict.
I have been gambling ever since I was studying at university. I was introduced to the scene of online gambling from my friends who were playing lot of online poker. Since then I was hooked, first it started with some small deposit for online poker and then more and more with other type of games like Blackjack and Roulette. During my third year, I had a habit of logging in my account and playing every single day. I won a bit and then lost it back quickly, most of the times I tried to win my loss back but always fail to do so.
By the end of my university, I had lost around 4k, and I was very lucky to be able to pull it through and graduated.
I decided to quit and promise myself never ever to do it again. I found a job and worked really hard to earn all my money back.
Things were great until the last 4 months when my urge for gambling came back again. This time it started really slow with me only depositing small amount of money, I won some and lost half of it. But until today when i lost my £30 deposit on Mr Green, I deposited more and more to claim it back but eventually ended up losing £1200.
I feel absolutely terrible now, it's not like I have lost of all my saving but it really makes my life tougher. I keep rubbing my head, trying to hold my tears, the feeling is just unbearable.
I don't know what i need to do to be relieved anymore, I'm really stuck. I guess this will be the last time I ever gamble...
konsto
welcome to the forum, a place where you will recieve a wealth of help and support from like minded folk who all have the same objective.
to arrest the destruction of their compulsive gambling and live a life with any more devestation.
At 24 you quite literally have the rest of your life in front of you, be proud of the fact that you have recognised that gambling is destructive and that you want to end the misery it brings.
My advice take all the help out there, block your software, contact netline, use your diary to chart your progress.
You are not alone my friend.
The first piece of advice I was given on my first days recovery
There is a triangle
Time-Money-Location
Take at least one away at all times and the punt becomes impossible, gifting you the time to think, your rational side will have a chance to over power the addictive side.
our mantra whilst gambling is by and large the same
I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP
make a choice each day to arrest the punt and turn that mantra upsidedown
I DID WIN BECAUSE I DID STOP
be proud and most of all be kind to yourself
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Hi Konsto
At 24 I used to think I'm too young to have an addiction so I carried on until I was very ill. Stop it right now and the rest of your life is yours. keep gambling and you are owned by a machine. Get self excluded at once it helps. Blocking software for our computer is good. Get into some serious recovery. You did well to get through your degree whilst gambling. This shows your determination to be a winner. Take care
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