NEW DAWN , NEW DAY , FEELING GOOD !

Alan. Get your a**e back on here.

I've reached 300 days today because of the help, support and guidance that's guys like you have given me with out even realising it!

Thanks Alan. You have been a great help in my life and only hope you change your mind and come back to help others like you helped me!!

Thanks for the post Alan. And I like where your coming from.
I realise there's no miracles and some day's will be the pits.
When I'm not gambaling I'm as happy as a pig in ####
But it always rears it's ugly head and drags me back.
I can do it I know I can. And I will do it.
My biggest problem is time.
On a weekend I've stopped working as it's grinding me down
So that's what I'm working round at the minute filling my weekend up with doing stuff.
Alan I hope to be in your position next year. From here I'll just take it as it comes.
Thanks again for the post I do miss our little chats
Xx

Lol Josh sticks don't get me started there the Mrs burns them like no tomorrow and I think they smell like cat wee.

Seems like you have wanted to get that post out in a long time?

I don't think there is no right or wrong way of doing things
All though we're all addicted there is some individuality to it.
Some like yourself can crack on and leave it behind. Doesn't mean you have put less into by not attending meetings or reading book's.
For me it's like I'm soul searching looking for anything I can find. A reason why Im like I am
I could look forever and not find why.
I'm just going to try and keep it simple as suggested by everyone
Alan I will look forward to that email because there's at least 20 other's waiting on your arrival
No pressure lol.
Most if all enjoy the holibobs
Xx

Evening Alan and welcome back sorry the place is a bit of a mess I was just finishing up.
Looks like your in the fight now lol

So back from our trip to the Isle of wight with the kids last night and what a great time we all had , we juggled with the needs of a Baby a 6 & 9 yr old , my partners 15 yr old daughter plus her friend and 3 dogs but somehow it all worked just fine :)) , the sun shone everyday so we didn't go down the route of attractions for the kids , just lots of good days on some glorious beaches , kids were happy , dog's were happy and if their good then were good .

No gambling thoughts at all , apart from the night I used the loo in club house on site because the kids were hogging the shower in the Caravan . You walk in from the dark of outside to being Blinded by the lights and Deafend by the noise of the Arcade as you step in , kids shoving theire holiday money in the machines , while Mum's and Dad's use increased stakes in the sectioned off area's for the over 18's , mainly fixed eyes on the reels before them but an occasional glance accross to see if Junior's where they left them , I personally could always take em or leave em , obviously not hard core enough for me ?? but I can quite honestly see how it can all start for many , after all if youv'e got mum and dad's blessing and we learn by example then what's so wrong , right ?? .

You feell a little guilty that your not standing there trying to warn them of the dangers that we know lay ahead but what could you say or do that would make anyone listen , I wouldn't have , I'd have just thought " Shut up silly man , What do you know " ? So I guess the conveyer belt of Gamcare and GA's customers will slowly trundle along , not for all but but just for some , arriving here , reflecting on where it all went so wrong and how Mum and Dad are to blame for where they are in 20 yrs time ?.

Lets all hope not eh :(( x

We can't save anyone before we save ourselves. So they say lol
Good to see you had a nice little holibob. Although it sounds like you had your work cut out. Not long till the big day my freind. I've organised a big party for your 1st birthday
Xx

Hey you old booty....great to see your diary popped up again...and even better to read you had a lovely hol with the winkles and the mutts....that's kids and dogs in Devon ! Lol
All sounds like the usual manic family life we are so lucky to be part of now us be gamble free...jees the summer's marching on. ...life's a whirl of busy pub...kids...grandkids...bla bla. ...but hey. ..tis great to be knackered from life not the stresses of gambling...
I've taken a bit of a back step on here...selfish ?. ..maybe...not an premeditated decision....just kind of happened. If that makes sense ....just busy life really....I do still have a nose on here every few days or so....keeps me thinking about my addiction...I'm still gamble free and loving it...I'm learning daily....I love the way I now try to see all sides of everything. .....it's just wonderfull to not be living under a cloud...b****r. ...all sounds a bit mill's and boon ! lol...s**t still happens....it's life !
But I can cope ....I can function without an online slot
Anyway Mr fish. ...I seed you was active recently....and thought id just send you a " hello"...
I know that big day is soon....and I have a bottle of bubbly in the fridge in the bar....to bad you and deano and the other few on here that picked me up are far to far away to drink it....so I will !
Much love my old booty ....mwahhhh x

Evening Harold
Hope your well thanks for the drop by. I've had a top weekend mate. Sunday I just got in the car a drove and ended up in a town about 50 miles away. Spent the day shopping. Then stumbled upon a dog show whilst walking the river bank. Today we headed to the forest and just had a picnic and splashed about in the Brook
It's true what they say there's a whole world on your doorstep waiting to be explored.
Hope you've had a good weekend with the kids to?
Xx

ALAN 135 wrote:

So back from our trip to the Isle of wight with the kids last night and what a great time we all had , we juggled with the needs of a Baby a 6 & 9 yr old , my partners 15 yr old daughter plus her friend and 3 dogs but somehow it all worked just fine :)) , the sun shone everyday so we didn't go down the route of attractions for the kids , just lots of good days on some glorious beaches , kids were happy , dog's were happy and if their good then were good .

No gambling thoughts at all , apart from the night I used the loo in club house on site because the kids were hogging the shower in the Caravan . You walk in from the dark of outside to being Blinded by the lights and Deafend by the noise of the Arcade as you step in , kids shoving theire holiday money in the machines , while Mum's and Dad's use increased stakes in the sectioned off area's for the over 18's , mainly fixed eyes on the reels before them but an occasional glance accross to see if Junior's where they left them , I personally could always take em or leave em , obviously not hard core enough for me ?? but I can quite honestly see how it can all start for many , after all if youv'e got mum and dad's blessing and we learn by example then what's so wrong , right ?? .

You feell a little guilty that your not standing there trying to warn them of the dangers that we know lay ahead but what could you say or do that would make anyone listen , I wouldn't have , I'd have just thought " Shut up silly man , What do you know " ? So I guess the conveyer belt of Gamcare and GA's customers will slowly trundle along , not for all but but just for some , arriving here , reflecting on where it all went so wrong and how Mum and Dad are to blame for where they are in 20 yrs time ?.

Lets all hope not eh :(( x

Hi Alan, glad you had a good break. thanks for the drop by on my diary. most appreciated. tri

Alan know one is going to pay 20 quid for a bag of chips mate.
How was your first day back at the shop?
Mine was a gruler. It's even got me contemplating a new career
Always fancied being an astronaut. Possibly more realistic than winning on a scratch card?
I did notice the green thing popped in to have a swipe in your direction.
I was waiting for one of your epic comebacks.
Have a good one bud
Over and out Deano space ranger

Alan I would of thought you would of spotted it straight away.
Getting old bud lol

Lol...oh well...best get on with my ironing then. ..fun while it lasted..
Flattered really....first poem I've ever had written for me ....: )

I have to say thank-you for your support on my diary, it is ever totally supportive. I fully understand where you are coming from and what i have to do and accept. But ................. with the funds i have left and my low income it's fair to say i will never afford a hoilday in the maldives, i will be lucky to get a holiday anywhere next year. I guess i would accept more if i could save more and put it back to where it came from the bank! My counsellor and i have done the detailed sums, and if i work every month till i am 66, retirement from a financial view will be tough thereafter, her thoughts not mine, and that is with no debt now. To be re-alistic you cannot live off the state pension at 66, and i wont get any tax pension credit seeing i have taken a proportion of my pensions early to f....n gamble away. It's the re-ality Al, iv'e messed up and going forward it's a problem. Goodnight mate.

Hey. ..what were you doing up that time of night ?
Us over 50's need our sleep....now I've got a good excuse....I've been in the bar....busy working. ...you sir I presume have been ironing...or maybe darning socks...or even baking a cake !
Ha...spose it could have been a fish cake ! lol
Anyway...get some early nights in al. ...you've got a big celebration coming up and I don't want you tired and cranky at your bash !
I have to look after my side kick ! Lol
Rite in off to roost...time I've done my curlers and facemask...it will be 2am !
Sleep tight if you see this tonight...
If not ....MORNINGGGGG ! : )

For goodness sake al !
I've got a good excuse for being here so late !
Winos who don't want to leave the bar.....have you got a drive through at your chippy ?
You'll be over tired before your party even starts. ...
If however your ironing....or backing cakes....well I'll let you off !. ...don't keep ktf up to late either ....he's got a big day coming up as well....I'll be there wearing a shoe rack ! Sleep tight mr fish x