I lasted exactly one month gamble free but this weekend through boredom and the discovery of another online gambling site I wasnt excluded from becoming available I placed another bet. £200 football bet on Saturday which was a winner, then came Sunday I fancied my chances on the roulette, losing my initial deposit, winnings and then depositing another £3k to lose it all making the Monday morning blues 100 times worse this morning. I dont know about anyone else but it just feels like ground hog day I get so far and do so well to end up losing more than the last time I gambled, I feel I have an obsession with money which always leads me back to gambling, something I wish I could evict from myself. Determined now to finally beat it! I feel this forum could again be the key, I have visited before but always past it off after so long this time I need to make sure im a regular visitor.
Recovery diary starts now DAY 1! Thanks
Hi Jimmy
That's addiction talking to you, and if you get addicted to roulette you will never ever beat that game no one in time ever has. And one month in can be a dangerous time as addiction will tell you that " See you can stop if you want" " So lets just have this £200 bet" and now Gambling takes 3 grand off you and doesnt care. Most people gamble because of money but a compulsive gambler is greedy and has no stop triggers. It is better this side of the fence Jimmy hard to stay here as Gambling wants you back daily but you can definately can if your determined. Count up the days, be a better person, only exists this side of the fence.
Hi Smashed,
I appreciate the reply, Roulette has been the worst one for me, high stakes an the ability to win/lose money in a matter of seconds but as you say the casino always wins in the long run. I can see the greed within me or I would of walked after the first bet or loss, always chasing the losses too which makes things worse. Im young enough at the minute to kick this addiction and still have a normal life and be safe finanicially.
Hi Jimmy
I feel your pain but can't give you any answers because I am only 5 days GF after losing £6000 over the last four months but wonder if there any way you can prevent yourself having easy instant access to your money to gamble? Can you hand over control to someone or lock savings away in accounts which need you to give notice before you withdraw or something? I have just this weekend handed over all control of money to my wife which although is a bit humilating, it does mean I can't gamble even if I wanted to.
Loads of people with advise and knowledge on here to help. We need to use it. We can fight this and not having to feel like this.
Well here are some brothers in arms 🙂 . I am also a roulette gambler with highstakes as an issue. I have stopped counting the cash as its irrelevant at this stage. I look at it (roulette) as handing over your entire economy over to an angry 4 year old and hes a tough litle s**t to reason with. Look I have no good advice on how to deal with things at this level. It is a process in the making.
I started looking into mindfullness to handle my issues. It makes you look at you from the outside and in not inside and out and I recomend it to anyone as it gives your angst a rest. I have started to studdy our brains, Good book is Thinking Fast and Slow by Daniel Kahneman. Everyone has a trip to take here. There is no magic bullet to stop it just hard work to make things better.
Wish you both the best in your recoveries.
@c43herb @muststop123
Again thanks for the replies guys, just having a few people reach out makes me feel slightly better about it all, Ive handed all my finances over to my partner, I stumbled across a hiding spot for my credit card over the weekend did the unthinkable and used it, ive had to transfer some funds around to now pay that off. I just feel like Im getting nowhere fast, I have large periods of time where it doesnt even cross my mind, then all of a sudden ill do it again, the pain of losing money obviously dissapears over each time and for some reason I never learn my lesson I guess thats the power of the addiction.
I know the feeling about the obsession with money, I experienced this a lot. However, on the other hand, it's crazy how quickly money grows when you aren't gambling.
What worked for me was doing a year budget. So I could see how much money I could save in 12 months. And I budgeted in treats and stuff so it felt like my money went a little further than it did.
All I will say is make sure u self exlude from that one and carry on how you were b4 relapse. They are bringing out a multi self exclude online service so that should help
@adam808
That sounds like something I could try also set myself a 12 month goal then compare it back to where I am now!
Not heard of this multi exclude service but ill do some digging see what I can find, potentially exclude someone from a website before they can even discover it?
This service is nt ready yet it should be ready in jan
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