Hello,
I have huge amount of debt which I'm getting help from Step change so that's in hand. I haven't gambled since 22/09/15 awaiting my next session with aquarius so that's in hand. That side of things are being taken care of I'm taking positive steps towards handling my debt and my gambling but why do I feel sooo c**P everyday. The last week I have felt rubbish not sleeping well and just feel like hiding all the time.
It's bad enough I put my partner through all my gambling and debt c**P now she has to deal with me being depressed not wanting to go anywhere not even wanting to talk at times.
i have things to feel positive for but I just don't. I guess i'm anxious this debt and not gambling is pretty new this time around, It's hard not knowing what my life will be like for the next 7 plus years while I'm paying this debt off.
It takes time to feel better but you will if you continue to abstain.
Hi DAO,
I know yeah I know I will never feel as bad as i did when I was gambling as long as i don't gamble.
Had a really good chat on the netline with Thelma feeling a bit better now.
Hi Random
I feel the same mate. I think the issue with me is that my self esteem is at an all time low now. Also for the debt I put myself in I am thinking constantly why didn't I quit at when I first got into debt despite all the advise I received and so on. But these thoughts are illogical now. Can't change what's done. But today I will not gamble neither will you. That's all that matters for now.
Take care yourself.
Ergos
Hi Ergos
i know how that feels. I was a year clean bad enough before deciding to quit for that year I was already in debt. Only to relapse and multiply my debt by 4. I've accepted it now hardest thing is The realisation of my life will take a dramatic change.
Feeling better after Sunday now so I'll just write that off as a bad day. Still gamble free. Might change the name of this post at least to something slightly positive.
RC
I 'm glad you feeling better. Let's just carry on with our recoveries for the moment. Today I will not gamble and neither will you. Hopefully we will deal with issues, be it money or whatever, slowly, but not with gambling. Because it makes everything worse for us.
Be safe
Ergos
Still no gambling.
I had my first decent night sleep in 2 weeks or so without any tablets.
Last few days have been ok had one crappy moment with a creditor asking what I had done with the money from the loan as I'm going through a debt management plan and the loan was only recently taken out. I have step change sorting that out for me which is a massive help.
first time I've been to the gym in 2 weeks used to go 3/4 times a week. Trying to find my old routine again decent sleep and getting back into the gym.
ATM all is well.
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