Hi Taffy, read your diary to give me inspiration to try and beat this addication. May i ask you one question (please don't answer if you feel it is too intrusive) do have any debt in your life and how do you deal with that issue.
No debt at the moment, but I have had issues with debt in the past 10 years. I went through IVA process for a time. In the last 4 years I have climbed up the ladder in work, and with that financial rewards have come. I paid off all my debtors about 2 years ago. But at this moment I am debt free. But I was heading in that direction again. I simply couldn't put my family through that. As it stands we live a comfortable existance. I wish to keep it that way.
Problem with gambling is most if not all of us feel we can win. Even to this day I harbour thoughts of following some tipster, or running a set of rules that may benefit me financially. But my sensible side tells me I've wasted thousands and thousands of pounds over the years. I have stoppped before in the past. But this time it feels more final. I still run K9 blocking software on my devices, and tbh I will continue to do so until the day I die I guess. While that blocking software serves its purpose my sub concious tends not to even invite the idea of gambling.
Hi Ash,
Read through your diary, well done for the gamble free period so far. I must agree with your counsellor, I find that the thoughts of gambling stick around for quite a long time after you stop. Especially as a sports fan, with all the betting firm advertising, it can be hard to avoid it at time.
Keep up the good work, and making the right choice when it comes to not betting.
Ryan
Thank you Ash - your comments and support are much appreciated.
Day 45 - off to see the counsellor for the first time in 3 weeks. It's still all good. Life without gambling 🙂
Day 51 - still going strong. I feel good I have to say. I have limited the number of times I am seeing the counseller as well. In some ways I feel like I'm wasting her time, but I still wish to keep that supportive figure in my life.
I suppose in the back of my mind I wonder if one day something could trigger me to start gambling again. I have come so far I don't want to throw away what I've achieved.
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