The long road ahead

Thanks Dean, i am chasing you and wont be catching up!

Day 19 today and so happy to be away from this beast, fella will be away on thursday so would normally sink in the habit but im prepared and absolutely committed to staying away. Not sure about you but i have no desire to gamble and cant beleive i ever did, leaving that person behind me everyday.

We can definitely do this! Well done buddy 🙂

stay strong all, much love

b

xx

Keep going b.

I have just written on my diary that it seems to be somehow easier at the moment than previous attempts! I'm hoping that we have maybe at last got tired of the lives we all lived for so long?

Keep fighting, stay strong

Russ

Everyday is getting easier with everyone's meaningful helpful and supportive comments, it's the first time that I'm with people that can actually understand the difficulty in overcoming this illness and addiction and it feels great! Stay clear, clean and focussed on helping yourself to gain your only true way of winning...by not trying!!! We can do this!!!

18/03/2015 21 days clean

thanks gents, definitely feeling positive and in control of life, seems too good to be true.

in a funny way i think just logging on everyday is helping me stay in check and the positivity is great.

without getting too deep the concern for others makes me realise how we should feel for ourselves, yes 21 days in but we know we need to stay strong - i plan on sticking to the healthy, positive way of life and keeping hold of the real joy i feel 21 days in. Next tuesday 28 days - lets do this!

stay strong all, one day at a time,

much love

b

xx

19/03/15 22 days clean

Thanks NT - i am and will continue to do this - i cannot go backwards. Having a S****y day today to be honest, got my consolidation loan through today and have to admit and pay off all those S****y cc debts makes me confront the reality of what's happened and what i have done.

But - i will stay positive, deal with this with all of my might and make a decision everyday not to go back to that horrible dark place. I have no intention of going back, half my wages are now going on repayments, still leaves me plenty to live and be happy on and i realised that i can spend the next 5 years being miserable and lamenting my losses or i can cut them off dead and move forwards into a happier, more positive, healthy life with gambling.

22 days days clean and NEVER - EVER going back, One day at a time all, stay strong for me.

Much Love

B

xx

21/4/15 24 days clean!!

feeling positive today, of to aquarius for a session and hoping to gain some tools to stay strong and positive.

i have decided that i am going to enjoy life without worrying about how much money i have. Money comes and goes but love, family, health and success are long term 🙂

doing this one day at at time! By the bank holiday monday i'll be 33 days clean - next milestone set, bring it on.

stay strong all, much love

b

xx

22/03/15 25 days clean

Hello journal - 25 days clean today and feeling mentally and physically strong willed and happy. Had a really positive session with Aquarius and booked to go again on the 4th of April. Had no desire to gamble and steadily feeling like a normal person again - spent loads of time with the family and with the other half.

Setting some milestones to aim for so here goes:

Next Aquarius session i'll be 38 days clean

Barcelona i'll be 64 days clean

When Mum comes down i'll be 79 days clean

Onwards and upwards all - stay strong

Much love

B

xx

23/03/15 26 days clean.

no desire to gamble at all, loving happy life at this end.

stay strong all its possible!

Much love

b

xx

24/3/15 27 days clean

S****y day today, let down at work and feeling crappy, would have gambled to switch off from this but no desire to whatsoever so must be getting stronger.

Will be a better day tomorrow, stay strong all

much love

b

xx

Hi b

I keep seeming to get a bad day thrown at me every 3 or 4 days and have convinced myself that it's just to test my resolve.

Hopefully today is better, keep setting those checkpoints and keep battling

Stay strong

Russ

Bean wrote:

24/3/15 27 days clean

S****y day today, let down at work and feeling crappy, would have gambled to switch off from this but no desire to whatsoever so must be getting stronger.

Will be a better day tomorrow, stay strong all

much love

b

xx

hope so

keep at it and don't give up

its not easy for some , next to impossible for others depending how bad their addctions got

keep at it

25/03/15 28 days clean

Thanks both - much better today, work still sucks but when does it not, i'm in Sales so ever the rollercoaster goes on! Still got up and went to Yoga for 7am this morning, had a really productive morning and no desire to gamble at all - staying strong and never giving up!

1 month is in sight! Keep it up all

Much love

B

xx

Keep going...I've been busy at work which keeps me on the right path...still log on to read your success...Well done, it's a wonderful feeling to be rid of the 'need' to lose money!

27/3/15 30 days clean

thanks dean! Yep same here far too busy living life for that demon, next milestone is the 38 day mark - woop getting there happily,

hope everyone is doing well,

stay strong, much love

b

xx

29/03/15 32 days clean

Another weekend happily done - been on my own this evening, did have a momentary thought of gambling but more out of habit than desire. No threats to making myself slip back into the jaws of that monster!

Happy Days

Stay strong all - much love

B

xx