The long road ahead

1/4/15 35 days clean

Hi All,

35 days clean today with no thoughts of gambling, only thought to log in because i saw a bingo ad and felt sick. Very conscious that its still in the shadows and can affect at any point but feeling strong for the future 🙂

Hope everyone is well too, stay strong

much love

xx

5/4/15 39 days clean

Happy days all, 39 days clean today, agreed the next course of action re counselling - bit worried re finances with my Mot coming up but no desire to gamble.

Hope everyone else is staying strong,

much love

b

xx

13/4/15 47 days clean.

Wow 47 days and really pleased, mot was 260 so nothing to worry about 🙂 youre right NT gambling is never the answer.

Woke up in the middle of the night after a horrible gambling dream that id spent 2500 and couldnt stop! Feel horrible this morning after it, like ive cheated somehow.

definitely need to bring myself back online and recognise the signs here, rethinking time but must be kind to myself as ive done 47 days clean!!

check in later, stay strong

much love

xx

17/4/15 51 days clean

for anyone thats struggling beleive me it can be done! 51 days, not one penny wasted on that nasty habit, hope everyone else is doing ok, stay strong,

much love

b

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19/04/15 53 days clean

Absolutely thrilled to be clean and happy after 53 days of not gambling, not throwing my money away into the gambling black hole - i have so much more money that i've ever had and going for a new job too - still have 50k of debt to deal with which is a burden but it feels so light without the gambling monkey on my back. When i think back to that Tuesday that the whole world seemed to crash around me i am rebuilding my life, my finances and my mental health still.

For anyone struggling with the demon get help now - dont waste one more minute or one more penny with those b******s!

Stay strong everyone

Much love

B

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Them dreams are awful...been there waking up in sweats! (most of my adult life actually!) Glad you're still on track, keep strong, it's great to share and council others I find, just nice to have people that really know what it's all about!!!!

27/4/15 61 days clean!

woop woop is all i have to say, new job, new life 61 days clean,long may it continue!

hope all is well with everyone,

much love

b

xx

20/05/2015 84 days clean

hi all, long time no log in! 84 days clean and still fighting the monster! Had another nightmare about gambling and reminded myself that its always in the back ground waiting to pounce!

next milestone will be 100 days so 5th june, one day before my next counselling session - for anyone struggling i cant speak highly enough about seeking help, do it and dont look back,

stay strong all,

much love

b

xx

25/5/15 90 days clean

90 days! 90 days! Cant beleive it!!! Had some bored thoughts on monday and honestly did think about it but only for a split second - got a counselling session on the 6th which will be 101 days and started a new job today! Feeling on top of the world - never ever going back! Stay strong all!

much love

b

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06/06/15 day 101

Today I am at day 101, officially I am in recovery, honestly I think I'll always be on recovery mode - fine by me!! Going to set my next milestone at 150 days so 26th July and book something awesome!

It's happening all!!!!

Stay strong it's doable!

Much love

B

Xx

Hi Bean,

Fantastic to see you reach day 100, and now as you go onwards and upwards, congratulations!

Hope your counselling session goes well today, you are well into your recovery, keep it up, it's made my day seeing you so proud of your recovery, and so you should be! 🙂

How is the new job treating you, are you all settled in yet?

Best wishes,

-Ryan

Hi b,

Hows it going? Well done on getting to 100 days, brilliant achievement.

Hope to hear from you soon,

Take care

Russ

19/06/2015 114 days clean

another 2 weeks done, not feeling any urges and feeling like im more in control of my own life.

the new job is fab, think being unhappy in my job and needing a quick way out had a lot to do with my gambling. The good news is that even without any k9 or similiar i feel like i have no desire to gamble! Mind you 50k of debt and the mountain to climb does focus the mind! Whatever happens though i am determined to never put myself in that hell hole of a position again, so, hard as it may be to see the payments go out of my hard earned wages they are going towards my future- not the past.

next stop 150 days! Stay strong all

much love

b

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25/7/2015. 150 days clean!!

5 months on, 3500 paid off debts, 7000 in savings - the world is a better place without gambling and i can honestly say i am never going back.

Next stop 200 days!!

stay strong all

much love

B

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Lovely achievements there, 150 days of winning and the rewards are showing nicely

Stay strong.

Suzanne xx