Hi everyone,
Feels weird to be typing out this message, but I can say that i’m trying to move forward.
I’m only 19 but have seen gambling and been involved with it ever since I was young. I don’t blame anybody for this but this was just how it went.
From the day I turned 18, I signed up to the apps and started betting and spinning.
I found i could control myself betting on football and horses etc but not on slots and blackjack. This would consume my time with something to do as I know now a way I felt i could make a few extra pounds as well as cure my boredom, it felt like a win-win.
Thousands of pounds later I knew that I was trapped. I couldn’t see a way out and carried on.
It was only at the point I took out a loan I felt the seriousness and put an end to itÂ
However this only turned to be temporary.Â
It was only 6 months later, after winning 1 bet (then losing many more) where I realised I could take out multiple loans, enter my overdrafts and this spiralled me even further.
Im now at a point again of financial struggle, but knowing I see myself on the right path for the first time in years.Â
I am still yet to open up to anybody personally about my struggles but feel I need to.
Getting involved in gamcare, finally deleting the apps and attending meetings is making me see that there is a potential light at the end of the tunnelÂ
Maybe in time I can forgive myself and remove the guilt and begin to be happy
Thank youÂ
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Hi Jake
I'm so impressed with your post. I don't think anyone or anything couldn't have made me stop at 19 when I was 7 years into the addiction. You have your whole life ahead and have found the wisdom to stop. It took me 44 years. There are only three places gambling leads to, prison when the money runs out, insanity when the chaos becomes too much or death either natural or the only way out. Recovery is the way forward and I hope you are putting as much into your recovery as you did gambling.Â
Meetings, chatrooms, Gamcare and evive are the building blocks for me a well. How many days gamble free are you ?
been gambling for 35 years finally want to give it up
Wow jake.....
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How did it feel deleting those apps? the source of your problems ? bet it felt daunting but soo good when u done it.
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Youre very very young and have realised super early that gambling not for oyu so well done
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the first months he toghest but with support on here we will get u thru....
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If theres a moment of wekness especially this early month contact the gamcare chat (they available 24/7 everyday of the year) and get the support u need to make the right choice.....
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Self esteem and confidence will grow each day in recovery....
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Well done for making these great first steps
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Adam
Hi Jake
How are you getting on ? Anything you need to talk about ?
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