Yesterday I was weak l gambled to escape from life's problems but learnt from chatroom a great metaphor I was hugging a cactus which I think was brilliant. I think everyone on chatroom are absolutely supportive and amazing. I am and will continue to seek support so I can try and stop this disease of an addiction. Its the most awful destructive addiction that takes over. I thought I was strong and I thought I had control but now I've sorted out the access I'm determined to beat this. So here it is again Day uno one 1. I pick myself up and start again. No more I hate myself no more I feel absolutely terrible I cannot keep doing this to myself. Life's too precious to waste so time to be happy again. Big thankyou to everyone in chatroom you are all amazing 🫂🫂
Hi Jenny
You've been going up that road and a couple of times you've driven over the pot holes thinking they weren't deep. Each time you've changed the wheel and got back on the road. There is no need to go back to the start but this time just drive the road and avoid the pot holes.
You can do this
One day at a time.
Keep coming on here, keep it real, try and get a routine in place, accountability and connection
Amazing Jenny relapses are part of the proccess for me spending time and learning about the addiction is whats carried me through it is by far the hardest addiction due to how wide spread gambling is so it very easy to be caught out from my past experience i have relapsed when i had no urgues or even any intention of gambling i was simply just in the wrong place and with the wrong people for me it only coming on here and understanding how destructive this addiction is once i place a bet and by continueing on recovery awareness is key is this is the main factor i made the decision after my last recovery i will spend time on this forum and using Gamcare services and i believe it what carried me through to 980 days since my last bet
Hi Jenny
I've been thinking overnight about your post and the honesty within, which is brave. I do think there is a positive out of this which you have recognised and that's the trigger which moved you to escape. I guess if you watch out for that, I think you said in the chatroom it was an argument, forgive me if I'm wrong but I'm old and the memory isn't easy it used to be. Obviously you aren't going to get through life without the odd disagreement or bump in the road. Are you able to put something good in place when this happens again ? A walk ? That's my absolute go to when life gets tough and there are a lot of told you so comments made at me.
There is one thing I am certain of, you absolutely can do this. You have the determination and you keep showing up. I'm routing for you
Thank you Stuart and Tazman for your kind words and inspiration and yes I really want to do this one day at a time and avoid those potholes of doom n gloom. Spoke to someone on Reframe coaching this morning, it took my therapist 3 years after starting her journey to get it right which inspired me to keep going and the support on here in incredible and motivating. Thankyou Stuart and Taz I have put all the barriers n blocks in place now and gonna keep fighting, I've had too many years of feeling broken and looking forward to the future gamble free, living life, walking more enjoying life without gambling 🙂 chat soon Jen
Hi Jen
I think that's all any of us can do, keep trying one day at a time
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