Hi I first went to a gamblers anonymous meeting over 2 years ago and i regularly attended these sessions as well as sessions with a gamcare professional. I didnt gamble for over a year and was really happy and content. I then moved away from London to Manchester and I decided that the year long sessions at Gamcare and GA was enough for me to be cured of this horrible problem. This was in fact a lie the first year in manchester was fine no problems but then 8 months ago we moved to a new bigger place with my fiancee and thats when my problems started i started small trying to make quick cash and then I ruined myself by carrying on with this stupidity and losing a lot more and no matter how hard i tried to stop i couldnt and i was digging my self in to a more bigger hole with no one to support me as I promised my family and fiancee I would stop and worst of all lying to my fiancee again this time worse as next year we are meant to be planning our wedding and i have ruined this and everything. I wanted to let you know that I am admitting defeat and realising I am a gambling addict and I infact need GA and Gamcare as a platform and support to help me cope and I can now start to try and rebuild my life hopefully with my fiancee but if its not meant to be I am going to do this for me. Hi my name is alex and i am a gambling addict.
Well done starting again is hard but it will be the best decision you have ever made
Thanks Michael I know now that I need GA and Gamcare as structure and this will be the platform to me being me again. Thanks for your support.
Hi Alex and welcome,
GA is here for you as we are here as well. Keep your head up and think positive.
Best of luck
well done alex
hope you get back to the help that's available
keep posting
tri
Hello Emily & Alex
Firstly Emily thank you for your kind supportive message and yes i need to find a fill for the triggers of boredom loniliness etc..
Never really been into the gym scene but will have to find something similar soon.
I've just got the new 24 series (live another day) which is currently keeping me busy lol and the title is irony if ever i saw it 🙂
It is really good to hear back from you and alex my new friends on gamcare 🙂
Day 3 of No Gambling and as always wanting it to last and trying to do everthing to make it so.
Why this time will be any different i don't know but i really want it to be.
Kinda scary as before i wanted it to be too - i've done stuff before like walking into the sea to cleanse my gambling away and also tatooed no gambling over my body using henna ink and even drove to blackpool some 200 miles away to put a engraved padlock on the central pier to lock away my addiction (when i revisited later in that year the council had removed all padlocks and banned anymore) which was weird as i had gambled again back then and thought maybe it was because they had broke the lock and freed the beast.....all these things sound mental but it's the sort of stuff i go through to try and stop....
Maybe this diary will prove more reliable.
Thanks again Emily
And Alex welcome - thank you for your post, i really do get the over thinking issue of money and how if only this or that and get carried away and really the logic is the longer you play or gamble even...lets call it what it is ....then the more we will lose as the odds are made against us........to ensure consistant profit for the game makers/hosts/fat cats or whatever we may want to call them.
I look forward to posting more with you and wish you the best in your own struggle - maybe together the burdens will be less difficult than alone.
Off to watch some more 24 series now and get lost in that as got work in the morning so better go.
BYE FOR NOW......Wayne (LEST-WE-FORGET) DAY 3 GAMBLE FREE
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