First time on here hopefully it helps me writing on here in some way. I’ve hit rock bottom one too many times now and I always told myself never doing it again. Yet I always found myself getting caught up in it again. I put myself on GamStop that lasted for maybe a month till I found ways around it. Been using crypto casinos now which aren’t stopped by gamstop and you don’t even need ID to sign up. I deleted my Revolut a couple weeks ago and got rid of my id so I couldn’t sign up on Revolut and couldn’t deposit to gamble anymore only to find ways around that aswell. Just keep going round in a vicious circle turning my life right now potentially future into complete s**t, worst of all its been hurting my relationships with family and friends which has really got to me yet I still go and put myself and others through it. I’m in over 10k of debt through cards loans the lot and been working 2 jobs since September days + nights to pay this all off. At least that was the genuine idea but really I’ve just been fuelling my gambling addiction. I’m not completely hopeless and I have a plan to get myself out of debt and I know it has to start with my gambling addiction I just find it so hard to stay away. I tell myself I’ll just put £30 in and if I win I win if I lose I lose till I lose and end up putting in the rest of my bank balance. Knowing now I can’t block myself from gaining access to online slots I’ve decided to give my card and online banking to someone that will look after my money send me enough money I need weekly on another card I have and keep the rest for bills and debt payments in my account. Just really want all of this to end already cause I know how good I felt even when I managed to stay off it for a month or 2. I don’t understand myself at times when I still go back to it when I know how i felt and what I’m about to put myself through AGAIN. I’m not a daft lad far from it yet when it comes to gambling all common sense goes out the window.
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Hi Davz
It sounds like you know that you've crossed that line between responsible gambling and compulsive. Unfortunately there is no going back so it's sort of decision time. I gambled for 44 years before finally giving up. It's never going to go away for me but each day, just for that day, I wake up and say I'm not going to gamble today. I don't think about tomorrow, just today.
Is there anyway you can get on one of the chatrooms today which are at 1pm, 6pm, 7pm and 8pm. I will try and get on all four and we can chat, gambler to gambler. You already have some good things in place but the most important is Gamban on all your devices. That will block absolutely everythingÂ
Talk to the advisors on here. You can text chat to them by clicking the talk to someone button 24/7 and they are amazing. I talked to them 100s.of times in the first month. They will sign post you to help
Try and get to a GA meeting and find the right room for you. It's hard but will change your life forever
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