Install Gamban on computer and phone as well or have someone put a restriction code on your iphone and uninstall safari and use betfilter for your internet- you cannot gamble after that ideal!
Didn't feel that urge to play online these last few days as I'm still disgusted with myself for blowing all the money I had. Need to keep myself occupied with something else whether that be work or start exercising! Gambling I've come to realize is just an escape mechanism, It's because of the boredorm, Maybe there's a hint of depression there or OCD! It makes you lose all rationality to break you down to being no less than a robotic senseless J****E pressing a button on a screen waiting for the lights to say 'Big Win'
Even when they come those big wins they're ultimately followed by big losses..It doesn't even matter the money while you're doing it, It's just a fix you're looking for..a million mini fixes of endorphins! How did I become such a person, One that needs this daily fix..They say a gambling addiction can affect people from all walks of life, What's the common denominator between all us! Are we all just trying to fill some sort of void! I don't know but I want to find out the reason behind the why! Has this always been there waiting for a trigger! I can't get my head around it..Maybe I shouldn't even try..I don't want to deposit any more of my money and lie to myself about this is going to be the last deposit...and when it's gone automatically re depositing again and again and again until the card gets refused and I'm back here on the forum. I have installed gamban and I've removed the little cash I had left in my account..I'd never ever go to a casino! I'm the type that sits for hours upon hours by himself losing all his money then crawls into bed numb...At least I don't feel as numb today!
Been gambling online for a long time now,on and off, lost so much money,then found gamstop.....best thing ever,tried joining other online sites but can’t thank goodness.
Gamstop....wish that was available many years ago, would have saved me a fortune.
Colin D wrote:
Been gambling online for a long time now,on and off, lost so much money,then found gamstop.....best thing ever,tried joining other online sites but can’t thank goodness.
Gamstop....wish that was available many years ago, would have saved me a fortune.
Me too Colin! Agree with you
Weekend's are usually the worst time of the week, Not just for me I'm sure but for all of us with this addiction. Payday, money in the account and the usual reflex is to deposit and have a go on the slots.. Yesterday I didn't entertain the idea..I have gamblock on my PC but for some reason doesn't work on smartphone.. I don't live in the UK nor Europe..anyway was on to my bank and asked them to refuse any attempted payments to online casino's! I've transferred my wages to a savings account that can't be touched and left just a tiny amount in current account for weekly expenses. I'll tell you what, it's been just over a week now since I've gambled but the relief you feel for not wasting your money is such a great feeling! Compared to having that sick stomach full of regret and guilt and false hope of chasing loses and trying to figure out how you're going to get through the week on no money... I basically blew a big chunk of savings I'd kept and I know I'm not getting it back..only way to build up my savings is to work hard and fix myself goals to use that saved money for something positive...This place really helps, Reading the stories and the hope giving by those in recovery..good luck to everyone
Xenedra wrote:
Hi Nuevo,
I read this thread with interested. Could have written it myself. Iv struggled with this addiction for years. Breaking free, going back. Like you, I am addicted to having nothing and the thrill of having it all. Slots were also my vice. I gambled a couple of days ago, got up to £xxxx, gambled down to £xxx, s**t myself and manged to get back to £xxx absolutely swearing to myself that I would withdraw and have some money to get the through till pay day (25th). But as you can predict, I lost it all. Literally watched as it all went away. Then I kinda felt relief like it was all over again. I work hard, have nothing to show for it. I crave the big win, or any win to be honest, next I can’t wait for it all to go.
I’m here for you, know exactly how you feel. I’m also giving up giving up. But have to keep some hope! Talk soon
I've just read this Xenedra..thank you for replying! It's been hard really hard but it's almost two weeks now since I've gambled..The slots! So so dangerous..I could sit there in front of my PC or smartphone all night sometimes into the next morning winning then losing then trying to get it back..The absolute state I'd leave myself in..feeling worthless and ashamed! I'd self exclude and be strong for a few days then find another casino to play in..I used to enjoy watching those online casino streamers..it would somehow diminish my urge to play as if by watching them I was getting the itch scratched...This last week I've become so disinterested in even watching these people..it feels like I'm gradually turning a corner I hope so..still early days but when I get the crazy urge to gamble I just come on here and read..take it easy and good luck!
Coming up to a month now in a few days that I've stayed away from gambling. I don't miss the stress of chasing losses. Trying to stay active and positive in the evenings..my routine is to come on here daily now to read the stories left by everyone in the same situation. Financially things aren't the best but what's being spent is done so on things I need or treats for my wife and I.. it's great to look at my bank statement and not see any gambling transactions..The urge to gamble rarely comes back and when it does it's brief and fades away and I'm actually left with a feeling of contempt towards casino's..I have goals I want to achieve, one week gambling free, one month 6 months and then a year!! I have the proper blocks in place even if I do go mental and try to gamble..most of my earnings I take out of the bank and the wife takes care of bills and what ever there is to be paid...those loses I know I'll never get back, Most importantly I don't want to try and get back. Anyway good luck to everyone..it's a long long road to recovery but no matter how dark it seems there is always light..
Well done, keep up with the good recovery
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