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Hello Diary.

Been absent for a while. Both physically and emotionally truth be told.

On a positive note I have self-excluded from a few sites. One of these were my absolute favourite (the one with the big Smily face). Free spins meant I was making bigger deposits and the risk was becoming evermore volatile with each deposit I made. Yes, there are just one or two left yet to self-exclude from but I'm hoping to deal with those by means of a bit of willpower.

It's been nice to see my bank statements become smaller as the deposits have been greatly diminishing. I'm not stable enough to think I wouldn't go back there - but I have to hope not.

I have decided to keep up with this diary every Sunday and in the meantime wish everyone a degree of peace and serenity, pity they aren't things we can pick up on our weekly trip to Tesco! - If only.

Bye for now.

Congratulations Sapphira on your excellent progress. You are showing great courage, determination and wisdom.

I smiled reading in your last post that peace and serenity cannot be picked up in Tesco's. Well maybe it can if we look at it from a different viewpoint!

T ranquility .... can be ours if we learn to treat ourselves with kindness and respect.

E mpowerment ..... may be achieved by blocking from gambling websites. It really does make us stronger.

S ocial activities .... hobbies and widening one's horizons can present us with new opportunities.

C onfidence ...will build automatically as we free ourselves from the tyranny and torment of gambling.

O ptimism .... is important and it means never losing hope, especially on the days we feel sad.

Wishing you well my friend on day 16 of your gamble free adventure. With my thoughts I send you a Sapphire which is considered to be the wisdom stone. It releases mental tension, depression, unwanted thoughts and spiritual confusion....stephen x

Thanks SS, spot on as usual.

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The line in the sand

Thanks everyone for support.

Keep going Sapphira. A better life awaits you.

I hope everything works out brilliant for you. Do keep in touch and please reach out if you need to. I'll be around from time to time and many others can help if required. I still believe you can offer so much more if you leave gambling behind. It's hold will weaken if you put clean time behind you and keep working towards feeling at peace within yourself. I wish you good fortunes.

Hello Signalman, thanks so much for the reply I hadn't seen it till just now. It's kind of you to have taken time out to offer words of encouragement. All the best to you as well.

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So tired, but will drop by my diary next week for a little update.

Hi Sapphira,

Just wanted to drop by and let you know how similar your story is to mine, and I’m really pleased with your progress. I too am struggling with sleep patterns and wanting to keep myself busy all the time. I'm still anxious and worried and also excessively check bank account statements. Hope you’re doing well today x

Hi

I'm guessing if you haven't reset your day count then you're still on top of this? I hope so. I really appreciate you dropping my diary to say hi, I left you a response on there.

Anyway I hope you're tired from working hard at life rather than tired of going round in circles with the gambling but we'll see when you next post. I'll be looking out for it. Take care x